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Scythe

Lost in a delusion
Sep 5, 2022
542
Anything you look forward to in the future right now? I want to burrow some ideas and thoughts so I last a bit longer, or at least I suffer a bit less. Can be anything, maybe a upcoming game, or maybe just the weekend, or maybe something big like a graduation?
 
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wanttodie

Enlightened
Apr 19, 2018
1,804
yes dieing
 
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Zegers

Zegers

Enlightened
Dec 15, 2021
1,761
Not really... my last idea was to travel but i don't feel like it anymore because in this state nothing satisfies me
 
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Firegirl

Firegirl

Member
Sep 28, 2022
37
Yes! They're all very mundane and cliché things though lol, I've gotten to a point where I've accepted that life on this wretched planet is an absolute shitshow ANYWAY so while we're here we might as well enjoy the little things.

I look forward to things like eating takeout on a Saturday night, maybe albums that are to be released by favourite musicians, the weather warming up (i live in the Southern Hemisphere). My sister's wedding because she's waited so long to get married. Possibly getting a job soon. Going on a date with this girl i really like. Fun events like halloween coming soon. Catching up with my friends every few days. For me, There are many mundane things that could be looked forward to. They might not make life worth living but i figured while I'm here might as well enjoy them🤷🏻‍♀️
 
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LONE WOLF.

LONE WOLF.

PUNISHER.
Nov 4, 2020
1,988
Hopeful possibility of rescuing another dog, it's 7 months since my beloved Staffie Max passed away and l now feel l could offer another pooch a permanent loving home 🐕 🤞
 
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lionetta12

Just a random person
Aug 5, 2022
1,197
Anything you look forward to in the future right now? I want to burrow some ideas and thoughts so I last a bit longer, or at least I suffer a bit less. Can be anything, maybe a upcoming game, or maybe just the weekend, or maybe something big like a graduation?
I have nothing to look forward to anymore other than CTB.
 
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WhatPowerIs

WhatPowerIs

Paragon
Jun 19, 2022
980
For things to get better.
 
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crowbait

crowbait

they/them
Oct 4, 2022
65
Seeing my friends, spending time with them. My friends matter more to me than anything- I'm ruled by love. I'm also a bit of a hedonist who grew up deeply poor, so material things and pleasure are pretty much the only other things. I want to buy more clothes, experiment with waistcoats and long white skirts. Get new combat boots, I wrecked my current ones wearing them at my dishwashing job. Elaborate bone earrings from my favorite taxidermy shop. A new perfume that smells like the forest. And I want to try cooking vegetables a bit differently, I wish to experiment with asparagus. Buy a March Violets vinyl. Drink drink drink whiskey and cider every day, it turns me into a tolerable person. Gorge on my gourmet edibles. Dance in the rain and lie in the grass the morning after when it's turned cold and faintly damp. Continue having a great deal of sex. Be alone in a forest. Kiss somebody in the snow. Write some more. Get my own apartment, a small humble one with green plates and houseplants, and blankets and pillows and candles everywhere so people feel comfortable. The apartment thing is my biggest hope, but so laughably unrealistic in my city's economy. Of course I'm borderline, so I can type all 200 words of that and then be huffing N two weeks from now.
 
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WhatPowerIs

WhatPowerIs

Paragon
Jun 19, 2022
980
Seeing my friends, spending time with them. My friends matter more to me than anything- I'm ruled by love. I'm also a bit of a hedonist who grew up deeply poor, so material things and pleasure are pretty much the only other things. I want to buy more clothes, experiment with waistcoats and long white skirts. Get new combat boots, I wrecked my current ones wearing them at my dishwashing job. Elaborate bone earrings from my favorite taxidermy shop. A new perfume that smells like the forest. And I want to try cooking vegetables a bit differently, I wish to experiment with asparagus. Buy a March Violets vinyl. Drink drink drink whiskey and cider every day, it turns me into a tolerable person. Gorge on my gourmet edibles. Dance in the rain and lie in the grass the morning after when it's turned cold and faintly damp. Have a great deal of sex. Be alone in a forest. Kiss somebody in the snow. Write some more. Get my own apartment, a small humble one with green plates and houseplants, and blankets and pillows and candles everywhere so people feel comfortable. The apartment thing is my biggest hope, but so laughably unrealistic in my city's economy. Of course I'm borderline, so I can type all 200 words of that and then be huffing N two weeks from now.
Please hold onto those dreams! You sound like a person who has a lot to look forward to and has a lot of love to give.
 
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StolenLife

StolenLife

Warlock
Sep 19, 2022
740
Not anymore. I can't even find comfort in entertainment anymore. None of the coping mechanisms work anymore and I'm just waiting for the day I do it.
 
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rainbowbright

rainbowbright

Member
Oct 1, 2022
89
The yearly holiday lol I won a competitive a few weeks back so next year's is all paid for ☺️
 
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Dead Ghost

Dead Ghost

Mestre del Temps
May 6, 2022
1,343
I would like to have peace of mind and be able to think about doing things without getting bogged down or worrying about all the irrelevant details.
I think if I could achieve this everything would be much easier for me and I would be able to deal with most of my problems without feeling like I was dragging them in a cart up the mountain myself.

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M'agradaría tenir el cap tranquil i poder pensar en fer coses sense atabalar-me o preocupar-me per tots els detalls irrellevants.
Crec que si aconseguís això tot sería molt més fàcil per mi i podría fer front a la majoría dels meus problemes sense que tingués la sensació d'arrossegar-los jo mateix en un carro muntanya amunt.
 
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Venus13

Venus13

Experienced
Oct 2, 2022
233
So much. I have more hopes and dreams than I do issues. That's what makes me keep at it. That's so personal though. I'm not sure you can extract that from another.
Seeing my friends, spending time with them. My friends matter more to me than anything- I'm ruled by love. I'm also a bit of a hedonist who grew up deeply poor, so material things and pleasure are pretty much the only other things. I want to buy more clothes, experiment with waistcoats and long white skirts. Get new combat boots, I wrecked my current ones wearing them at my dishwashing job. Elaborate bone earrings from my favorite taxidermy shop. A new perfume that smells like the forest. And I want to try cooking vegetables a bit differently, I wish to experiment with asparagus. Buy a March Violets vinyl. Drink drink drink whiskey and cider every day, it turns me into a tolerable person. Gorge on my gourmet edibles. Dance in the rain and lie in the grass the morning after when it's turned cold and faintly damp. Continue having a great deal of sex. Be alone in a forest. Kiss somebody in the snow. Write some more. Get my own apartment, a small humble one with green plates and houseplants, and blankets and pillows and candles everywhere so people feel comfortable. The apartment thing is my biggest hope, but so laughably unrealistic in my city's economy. Of course I'm borderline, so I can type all 200 words of that and then be huffing N two weeks from now.
What a beautiful post. Thanks for sharing.
 
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brighteyes

Member
Oct 4, 2022
11
Seeing my friends, spending time with them. My friends matter more to me than anything- I'm ruled by love. I'm also a bit of a hedonist who grew up deeply poor, so material things and pleasure are pretty much the only other things. I want to buy more clothes, experiment with waistcoats and long white skirts. Get new combat boots, I wrecked my current ones wearing them at my dishwashing job. Elaborate bone earrings from my favorite taxidermy shop. A new perfume that smells like the forest. And I want to try cooking vegetables a bit differently, I wish to experiment with asparagus. Buy a March Violets vinyl. Drink drink drink whiskey and cider every day, it turns me into a tolerable person. Gorge on my gourmet edibles. Dance in the rain and lie in the grass the morning after when it's turned cold and faintly damp. Continue having a great deal of sex. Be alone in a forest. Kiss somebody in the snow. Write some more. Get my own apartment, a small humble one with green plates and houseplants, and blankets and pillows and candles everywhere so people feel comfortable. The apartment thing is my biggest hope, but so laughably unrealistic in my city's economy. Of course I'm borderline, so I can type all 200 words of that and then be huffing N two weeks from now.
Love this so much! My fave perfume picks me up and I wear it whether I go outside or not. I dance in thunderstorms, but people tend to stare a lot less if I swim during a thunderstorm. I love the forest at anytime, but during the harvest moon it was magical and I love smelling like a bonfire. I love my plants and feeling like I am living in a jungle. I'm clearly hedonistic as well. Thank you, it's nice to think about all the things that bring pleasure.
 
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makethepainstop

makethepainstop

Visionary
Sep 16, 2022
2,032
Anything you look forward to in the future right now? I want to burrow some ideas and thoughts so I last a bit longer, or at least I suffer a bit less. Can be anything, maybe a upcoming game, or maybe just the weekend, or maybe something big like a graduation?
I look forward to one thing in life......my death.😋
 
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lifeisadream

One of life’s failures
Oct 3, 2022
116
Mine are silly things:
1. Listening to music to get through the dire working day.
2. Being able to paddle round to my favourite secluded beach. Then spending the day there laying in the sunshine watching the wildlife & listening to the waves.
3. Sitting outside at night staring at the stars & catching glimpses of shooting stars zooming across the sky.
 
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standbyme

Member
Oct 11, 2022
15
there's a new album coming out on the 14th i'm looking forward to. other than that no nothing at all
 
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Ryoxuka

Gigautist Wandering Scumbag
Oct 8, 2022
5
My next meal.
 
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Conker

Conker

Specialist
Oct 22, 2019
351
Abusing the hell out of weed, could use those extra hours of sleep. High end nano air filter against chemtrails and their darn pesky dust.
 
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SarRy

Student
Oct 5, 2022
192
I want to finish my writing. I started to write online about my experiences and thoughts. I was told I have an unusual, or unique, mind and that it might be good to share how I think. My brain works differently from normal people. I hope it will help someone. So far, nobody has read it. I'm somewhat scared of finishing my project. My brain is capable of learning and understanding information in a useful way, but it also wants to kill me. I guess I made some peace with the fact that when it's tired of learning and writing, then it will finish the job.
 
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LONE WOLF.

LONE WOLF.

PUNISHER.
Nov 4, 2020
1,988
Seeing my friends, spending time with them. My friends matter more to me than anything- I'm ruled by love. I'm also a bit of a hedonist who grew up deeply poor, so material things and pleasure are pretty much the only other things. I want to buy more clothes, experiment with waistcoats and long white skirts. Get new combat boots, I wrecked my current ones wearing them at my dishwashing job. Elaborate bone earrings from my favorite taxidermy shop. A new perfume that smells like the forest. And I want to try cooking vegetables a bit differently, I wish to experiment with asparagus. Buy a March Violets vinyl. Drink drink drink whiskey and cider every day, it turns me into a tolerable person. Gorge on my gourmet edibles. Dance in the rain and lie in the grass the morning after when it's turned cold and faintly damp. Continue having a great deal of sex. Be alone in a forest. Kiss somebody in the snow. Write some more. Get my own apartment, a small humble one with green plates and houseplants, and blankets and pillows and candles everywhere so people feel comfortable. The apartment thing is my biggest hope, but so laughably unrealistic in my city's economy. Of course I'm borderline, so I can type all 200 words of that and then be huffing N two weeks from now.

Screenshot 20221016 141554 MIG BOOT'S £25 Each Screenshot 20221016 1415152
 
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S like suicide

Enlightened
Apr 29, 2021
1,435
Right now...practice partial hanging again,it's the only method i have for the moment
 
jodes2

jodes2

Hello people ❤️
Aug 28, 2022
7,737
Sigh... No just dying eventually one way or another. So many more years to go SIGH
 
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pinkroses444

Member
Oct 9, 2022
19
Anything you look forward to in the future right now? I want to burrow some ideas and thoughts so I last a bit longer, or at least I suffer a bit less. Can be anything, maybe a upcoming game, or maybe just the weekend, or maybe something big like a graduation?
The idea of one day meeting someone who would later become my best friend or husband etc or just the fact that one day could change my life used to help me look forward to the future. I'm codependent and ruined things with my on and off bf of 5 years so everything feels pretty bleak to me now
 
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NoLightRemains

NoLightRemains

I found my light again. Namu Amida Butsu
Sep 26, 2021
374
Spending time with my partner. She helps me feel safe and cared for. We have a LDR so I'm always afraid each time I see her will be the last.

I enjoy talking to people online. Voice calls are difficult for me, but I like group text chats.

I like longer term goals in video games. Finish a grind, beat a hard boss, or get a higher ranking on a ladder.
 
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przeciwwymiotne

Be rude to me at all times, I don't deserve kindne
Jun 27, 2022
343
Anything you look forward to in the future right now? I want to burrow some ideas and thoughts so I last a bit longer, or at least I suffer a bit less. Can be anything, maybe a upcoming game, or maybe just the weekend, or maybe something big like a graduation?
Being free from binge urges, getting a successful spine surgery, getting a scholarship
 
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ph0enix

WASWAJFIWWNCJCWOAL
Oct 14, 2022
57
give me 100000000 dollar still be down
 
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seaweaves

they/them
Oct 25, 2021
118
I was looking forward to seeing a friend this weekend. Haven't seen any friends at all in a year, or maybe longer. They cancelled yesterday night last minute, and again today. Their reasons are fine, but the feeling hit me a lot.

It's easy to blame how I'm feeling right now on how much meaning and hope I had pinned on this friend time. I was Really looking forward to breaking a year of solitude (the longest I'd been so seriously alone), esp with this person.

This isn't to say "don't look forward to things." But maybe more "I'm looking forward to being able to trust looking forward to things again." (The contradiction/irony isn't lost on me).
 
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