Partial-Elf

Partial-Elf

Eternal Oblivion
Dec 26, 2018
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As per the title–is anyone working on an autobiography? I started today. I guess just to sort things out in my head–I doubt I'd include it in a suicide note since I intend to be brutally honest in ways that wouldn't be acceptable to the public.

My work schedule and depression have loosened up recently, otherwise this wouldn't be possible for me.
 
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BipolarExpat

BipolarExpat

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May 30, 2019
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Congrats on starting to write and having a bit of a reprieve.

I've thought about it many times due to the inordinate amount of people telling me I should.

Apparently when I'm not depressed - I'm a helluva storyteller.

Having lived in 7 US states, visited 40 or so,...lived in 5 countries and traveled to nearly 40 - I've got some settings/characters, etc.

To be honest, it's just the fkin' depression/anxiety keeping me from accomplishing. Wish I was better at operating despite the funk.
 
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First loss

First loss

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Jan 28, 2019
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Nah. Who gives a fuck anyways. I'm far to insignificant for that. In fact, aren't we all? What's the point?
 
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BipolarExpat

BipolarExpat

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May 30, 2019
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Just pass the time, I suppose.
 
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Partial-Elf

Partial-Elf

Eternal Oblivion
Dec 26, 2018
461
Nah. Who gives a fuck anyways. I'm far to insignificant for that. In fact, aren't we all? What's the point?
Yeah, I'm not really doing it for anyone else or because I've had a notable life. I find it relaxing and therapeutic, like journaling or talking to a therapist or reading on this forum. I'm also someone who enjoys writing, though, which seems to be somewhat rare.
Congrats on starting to write and having a bit of a reprieve.

I've thought about it many times due to the inordinate amount of people telling me I should.

Apparently when I'm not depressed - I'm a helluva storyteller.

Having lived in 7 US states, visited 40 or so,...lived in 5 countries and traveled to nearly 40 - I've got some settings/characters, etc.

To be honest, it's just the fkin' depression/anxiety keeping me from accomplishing. Wish I was better at operating despite the funk.
I feel that entirely, there are so many times when I can only do the absolute bare minimum. My plan is to work on this in the snippets when the clouds part, so to speak... or until the bus comes
 
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Jean Améry

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Mar 17, 2019
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Yes. Tentative title: 'I came, I suffered, I went'.
 
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Lush_nova

Lush_nova

Self Destruct Activated
May 16, 2019
105
I blog, its my history not an autobiography, I don't link personal info bar dates, Its shite, and this talking helps stuff is crap,
Its there to try and get people to understand me if poss,
Nah forget it that ain't ever gonna happen
 
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Superfluous

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Mar 16, 2019
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Yes. Tentative title: 'I came, I suffered, I went'.
Trying to translate that into Latin. Veni is easy. Struggling to conjugate the other 2 verbs.
 
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Partial-Elf

Partial-Elf

Eternal Oblivion
Dec 26, 2018
461
I blog, its my history not an autobiography, I don't link personal info bar dates, Its shite, and this talking helps stuff is crap,
Its there to try and get people to understand me if poss,
Nah forget it that ain't ever gonna happen
Yeah, I have recently got that "no one understands" feeling very acutely
 
Severen

Severen

Enlightened
Jun 30, 2018
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Yeah. But it will only be one sentence long. "I came, I saw and I killed myself." LOL Because I know, most people don't really want to read pages and pages about my life even though I've lived a very interesting and unique life. I understand, people have better things to do.
 
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Partial-Elf

Partial-Elf

Eternal Oblivion
Dec 26, 2018
461
Yeah. But it will only be one sentence long. "I came, I saw and I killed myself." LOL Because I know, most people don't really want to read pages and pages about my life even though I've lived a very interesting and unique life. I understand, people have better things to do.
Like I said, not necessarily something I'd leave behind for others. More to relax, process, and have some closure leading up to ctb
 
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Severen

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Like I said, not necessarily something I'd leave behind for others. More to relax, process, and have some closure leading up to ctb

I see. Like something to help you prepare for death.
 
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Lush_nova

Lush_nova

Self Destruct Activated
May 16, 2019
105
Yeah, I have recently got that "no one understands" feeling very acutely
People claim they do but they don't have a clue. My blog has shut up one lady who was trying to give me advice, advice that was pointless... ''Yes i understand what your going through depression is hard, Go smell the flowers and be reminded how beautiful life is, its what truly helped me....''

Nahhh fuck off, I have a patio garden with no flowers for a reason love
 
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LogicalConclusion

LogicalConclusion

Experienced
Jun 2, 2019
239
People have been telling me for years that I should write, whether it be about psychology (particularly raising awareness about cults and thought reform) or some sort of memoir. Maybe it'd be nice, maybe it would help someone, but I'm tired. And there's too much there to sort through as I'm only now beginning to get a better sense of my life's timeline and getting memories back/reintegrating. That in itself is nice closure for me.
 
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LastFlowers

LastFlowers

the haru that can read
Apr 27, 2019
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An autobiography?
I'm better off handing out blank journals with cow manure on the front cover.
 
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