Venting Anyone up to talking?

[devil]

TW:



I have no one to talk to and I feel like everyone on here understands me more than people in real life.. I just feel super alone right now and I can't stop thinking about suicide. I've been having visual thoughts about it all day and I've been trying to think up a plan. I can't tell anyone this because I don't want anyone to stop me but then I also wish someone would just realize how not okay I am and try to help me. Idk I'm so depressed right now, I just want to slit my wrists or swallow poison and never wake up.

I need help

 

[devil]

Hello, I'd like to talk with you... Do you want to PM?

Yes please, even though I'm not sure how to do that.. I just recently got this account.

 

[Jack]

i'd like to talk to someone too im feeling very trapped and miserable and worthless

 

[Asta]

That's OK, we can "talk" here... No one is worthless. We are all just souls having a human experience, and it isn't easy! The best thing I ever did was to read and try to research what this life and the afterlife is about, assuming you believe in that. It's important to learn all we can about ourselves, don't you think? What do you say, Soul? (Thanks for the like.)

 

[Jack]

this experience sucks i dont want to do it anymore

 

[devil]

this experience sucks i dont want to do it anymore

I agree

 

[Jack]

i want to kill myself this time before i change my mind

 

[Soul]

I'm sorry you're struggling, @liesgreedmisery and @Jack. Please don't cut your wrists or swallow anything I wouldn't swallow, okay? Those aren't effective exits and I don't want you to make your situation worse.

@Jack, I don't know your story but I see you've been here a while. I guess you've researched everything and have a clear plan? Do you want to talk about it?

 

[barny]

:( I feel the same, so alone, have no one, and no one cares. what do you think you could do to help?

 

[Asta]

We're all your friends here and we care. This is a safe place to talk. Does that help a little?

 

[devil]

:( I feel the same, so alone, have no one, and no one cares. what do you think you could do to help?

I'm sorry that you feel that way as well, as for what I think will help... I have no idea.
I'm pretty much just ready to ctb. I don't have any hope that anything will get better, it's
always going to be one continuous loop of misery for me.

 

[barny]

i dont think I can send messages either.
Im sorry I dont know anything about you/where you are in you're journey. do you have any friends or family you can talk to, or a doctor?
i I cant say if things will get better or not. it depends on your reasons I guess and if you can change anything. I have bipolar and meds helped for a bit. I went to some support groups, saw a therapist, different things that helped for a while.
can I ask, what your reasons are?
also id say dont do anything impulsive that wont work because you'll just end up in a psych ward. make sure you've thought everything through properly first.

 

[devil]

i dont think I can send messages either.
Im sorry I dont know anything about you/where you are in you're journey. do you have any friends or family you can talk to, or a doctor?
i I cant say if things will get better or not. it depends on your reasons I guess and if you can change anything. I have bipolar and meds helped for a bit. I went to some support groups, saw a therapist, different things that helped for a while.
can I ask, what your reasons are?
also id say dont do anything impulsive that wont work because you'll just end up in a psych ward. make sure you've thought everything through properly first.

It's okay, I have a close friend that knows everything that I've been going through. I've just been dealing with this for awhile now
and I just feel like she's tired of hearing about the same problems. So I've been keeping all of this to myself recently. I'm not
really sure if I should tell her about the suicidal thoughts... it's a tricky topic, I'm always paranoid that she'll end up getting
me committed to a hospital and I won't be able to follow through with my plan. And as for the reasons why.. they're really
personal, i'm not too comfortable sharing it at the moment. I've just been dealing with depression for 3 years now, and I've had
some really bad past trauma that's destroyed me all of these years.

 

[Asta]

You're right - it is a "tricky topic" for most people. I think you're wise to keep any plans to yourself. The last thing anyone would want is to be committed!

 

[The Hunter]

TW:



I have no one to talk to and I feel like everyone on here understands me more than people in real life.. I just feel super alone right now and I can't stop thinking about suicide. I've been having visual thoughts about it all day and I've been trying to think up a plan. I can't tell anyone this because I don't want anyone to stop me but then I also wish someone would just realize how not okay I am and try to help me. Idk I'm so depressed right now, I just want to slit my wrists or swallow poison and never wake up.

I need help

Okay, I can not send private messages to you, I think because you're new. So try to stay calm, you're not alone, I understand you, I've been in the same situation and maybe I can stay like this again. try to relax, drink something, listen to sad songs (yes) and please do not do anything impulsive. try to sleep, if you can not, get a doctor to get some pills. try to stay strong, a sincere hug for you.

when possible, if you want PM me.

 

[devil]

Okay, I can not send private messages to you, I think because you're new. So try to stay calm, you're not alone, I understand you, I've been in the same situation and maybe I can stay like this again. try to relax, drink something, listen to sad songs (yes) and please do not do anything impulsive. try to sleep, if you can not, get a doctor to get some pills. try to stay strong, a sincere hug for you.

when possible, if you want PM me.

Thank you so much

 

[barny]

it sounds like you want help, and you do have someone. reach out to them, im sure they'd want to help. the last thing you want to do is end up in hospital because that certainly does not help.

 

[slickOne]

I hope this doesn't come too late, but if you'd like I'd like to talk to you. Life is shit but at least we all should have someone to talk to, right?

 

[faultypiston]

Yo

 

[devil]

it sounds like you want help, and you do have someone. reach out to them, im sure they'd want to help. the last thing you want to do is end up in hospital because that certainly does not help.

I want to reach out in a way, but I'm just so tired of having to deal with it. I don't know if want help this time.

I hope this doesn't come too late, but if you'd like I'd like to talk to you. Life is shit but at least we all should have someone to talk to, right?

you're not too late, life is shit I agree. I'd rather talk to someone on here instead of in person.
no one understands me in real life.

Yo

sup

 

[thedutchguy]

My pm is always opennfor someone who needs te vent/tell or just want a chitchat feel free to send a pm

 

[devil]

My pm is always opennfor someone who needs te vent/tell or just want a chitchat feel free to send a pm

thank you

 

[slickOne]

If I might comment on this thing - I've been hovering around here for not too long but it's incredible how much support people on here are actually offering, probably one of the best communities online.

 

[devil]

If I might comment on this thing - I've been hovering around here for not too long but it's incredible how much support people on here are actually offering, probably one of the best communities online.

I know, I just made this account the other night. Everyone is lovely on here, I have met more nice people on here
than I have in my whole life.

 

[Egddios]

I'm not so great at getting back quickly to PM's but I just wanted you know, you're not alone and we're all here for you as best we can be.

A hug.

 

[devil]

I'm not so great at getting back quickly to PM's but I just wanted you know, you're not alone and we're all here for you as best we can be.

A hug.

it's okay, i'm not so great at it either. it's the thought that counts, thank you so much.

 

[Thorn]

Today is not a good day to do anything at all, except to think, maybe. Depending on the thoughts.
That number. There is one number that follows me for as long as I exist. Well, it changes every year, but nothing else tied to this won't.
Is there anything for you to think, that would change the point of pressure?

 

[slickOne]

Is there a way to make one thought change the impact of millions of them?

Today is not a good day to do anything at all, except to think, maybe. Depending on the thoughts.
That number. There is one number that follows me for as long as I exist. Well, it changes every year, but nothing else tied to this won't.
Is there anything for you to think, that would change the point of pressure?

 

[Thorn]

Is there a way to make one thought change the impact of millions of them?

Basically, yes, if it is heavier than the rest. That is why it's just changing the point of pressure, rather than an instant relief.
I do this all the time, not because I like torturing myself, but because it's exhausting to the point the mind goes blank.

 

[slickOne]

Basically, yes, if it is heavier than the rest. That is why it's just changing the point of pressure, rather than an instant relief.
I do this all the time, not because I like torturing myself, but because it's exhausting to the point the mind goes blank.

I guess self harm is a somehow fitting analogy. If you don't really enjoy hurting yourself, but it helps you feel something, just like blacking out your mind to stop the chaos..