Water-Lily
Enlightened
- Dec 26, 2020
- 1,182
I went outside to a restaurant with some relatives yesterday. My grandmother and I had a lot of fun, as we never eat out together. I was observing the waiters and waitresses and how effortlessly they worked. I myself have tried to work many jobs but my trauma and illness always made it difficult. Being in a toxic home does not help with that either and has made it especially hard (triggering suicidality). I acknowledge that my trauma and abuse has made it especially hard to be on par without other 20 year olds (I'm 24) who can work and be more independent. I grieve what I lose and how the abuse stunted my developmental growth. Can anyone relate to this?