DontplayGod
She/her
- Feb 6, 2022
- 123
I'm so sorry about your mom, my parents never showed up to any of my events as a kid. I think my mom went to like 1 concert because I told her some college dude was interested in offering me a scholarship. But flute is such a cool instrument, one of the pieces I recently played had a really moving flute solo. The piece is called "a movement for Rosa" it is a really sad yet beautiful piece in memory of Rosa parksI use to play flute.
I haven't picked it up in years though thanks to my stupid mother and grandmother.
I played it for school (my first pick was drums but meh no complaints). We had a concert and living so far out/having to be there early for one last practice/warmup I figured I'd go with my bf because he lived in town. We went and it was my class turn to go on stage.... (I want to cry..) it was my first time ever without stage fright and I was so proud of myself but.... I searched the crowd.... She said she'd be here.... But she wasnt.... We went to intermission and I found her in the hall. She says she was in the back, but I searched everywhere, I know what my mom's face looks like. She lied, she wasn't there. I went with my class back up to the balcony finished the show and then went home. The whole drive the only thing I heard those 2 fucking cunts talk about was the gr12s and how awesome they were.
(in another thread I said something about always ruining conversations because it seems no matter what we're talking about it triggers something, yeah...)
Anyway, it's been about 7yrs and I've finally picked it back up.... But I need to fix it and I can't find a flute repair kit nor want to spend 200$. I'll fix it at some point, I would like to play again...
This hits too close to home :( I'm so sorry. I'm actually pretty good at trombone I've made the high school allstate band a few years ago and was contracted for a dci corps one season (couldn't March because of mental health). So I'm pretty skilled at it, the thing is that my mental health limits me a ton. I have trouble practicing and honestly only do it maybe twice a month. But without all this mental anguish dragging me down I would be one of the top trombone players in my age group in the world because I would have the ability to practice and the focus to smart practice which I only have the capability of doing for maybe 5 minutes. Sorry if this came off as self absorbed and arrogant, I just yearn for the person I could have been if not for my mental illnessI played the flute, quite well, tried to get back into it a while ago, but my health keeps preventing me from doing so.
I taught myself the guitar. Though never to a very high skill level.
And I taught myself the piano :) Also not extremely good at it, because I can barely find the time and energy to play.
I'm quite good at picking up instruments. Music is my only passion, but I lack the money and health to pursue it. And I was never supported as a kid anyways, so there never really was a chance to make something of it.
Ugh, still makes me sad. But well.
Yeah, after trying to join a few things in elementary school and realizing I couldn't count on a drive making me unreliable to everyone else, I gave up trying to join anything.I'm so sorry about your mom, my parents never showed up to any of my events as a kid. I think my mom went to like 1 concert because I told her some college dude was interested in offering me a scholarship.