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Mixo

Mixo

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Aug 2, 2020
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I posted about someone who is driving me to CTB as a last resort but I had to delete it for safety/privacy reasons. Basically, I'm being forced to go much sooner than I originally had planned, so I'm probably going to go through some hell the next couple days before I can land into a hotel and finally put myself down. It might be sooner than a week.

Anyone else leaving soon? I'm trying hard to mentally prep myself but it's not easy.
 
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Deleted member 15256

Deleted member 15256

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Feb 18, 2020
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If you don't want to go yet, maybe there's a way for you to stay? And go in peace with your decision.
Sorry, I don't know exactly your situation. And I am really sorry for what you're going through.
I am planning on leaving when my sn arrives. But it will take a while
 
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Wisdom3_1-9

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Jul 19, 2020
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I don't know your situation, but I'm sorry you feel this way. I agree with @sami that I think you deserve to go at a time that feels right for you and to be at peace with everything. I plan on going in about three weeks, but I've given myself time to plan, put my things in order, and get into the right headspace.
 
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followingfate

followingfate

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Dec 26, 2020
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I am planning on going soon. we will see if it actually happens because my survival instincts really like to work against me, but I do plan on it. I'm sorry you are being forced into such a situation. take time to decide if it's really what you want to do.
 
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Symbiote

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Oct 12, 2020
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Sorry you feel this way. I'm in a mixed state myself, but hanging on. I don't intend to go and I use this forum as stress relief to get away from the madness. Still need to see this through the end until I have nothing left in me to continue on.
 
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Mixo

Mixo

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Aug 2, 2020
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So things changed a bit. I have about 2 weeks before I'll be checking into my last hotel room. I don't have faith in anyone, anything. The person who is instigating this has told me that they believe I deserve to suffer and to languish away but it's clear from their demands that my exit will come then as survival for me will be impossible at that point. So I'll have a little bit more time to process the fact that my life is ending. I know it's probably for the best and I am probably too ill to keep going anyway. Probably not many people will read this thread, but I'll be updating as I get closer to my exit. I thank you all for the support and kind words.
 
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Symbiote

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Oct 12, 2020
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So things changed a bit. I have about 2 weeks before I'll be checking into my last hotel room. I don't have faith in anyone, anything. The person who is instigating this has told me that they believe I deserve to suffer and to languish away but it's clear from their demands that my exit will come then as survival for me will be impossible at that point. So I'll have a little bit more time to process the fact that my life is ending. I know it's probably for the best and I am probably too ill to keep going anyway. Probably not many people will read this thread, but I'll be updating as I get closer to my exit. I thank you all for the support and kind words.

Can you tell the person for me to go fuck themselves with a rusty spork? '

I take it you live with this person? And you do not have the funds or energy to leave/move out of this toxic environment?
 
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Mixo

Mixo

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Aug 2, 2020
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Can you tell the person for me to go fuck themselves with a rusty spork? '

I take it you live with this person? And you do not have the funds or energy to leave/move out of this toxic environment?
Yes, essentially, those details are part of the situation. They're not my ultimate reason for leaving, though. It's the chronic illness and physical decline that are the reasons I don't want to continue and probably won't survive anyway. As my situation changes and I can be sure that my privacy is ensured, I'll probably share more details about what happened, about this person, and why things went wrong. I guess it doesn't matter too much, but it's my stupid little life, you know? And it mattered to me.

Thanks for the supportive words. I hope you're finding what you need here.
 
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TooConscious

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Sep 16, 2020
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I was about to make a thread about this. Maybe a few weeks but the council housing benefit have stopped contributing to my rent over Christmas.... So I can't contact anyone over the holidays,
Its some murderers way of killing people working in these offices.
 
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Adamsnolife

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May 5, 2020
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Not a week unfortunately. Probably in the next 2 to 4 months due to Covid regulations
 
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