Discussion Anyone know what this disorder might be?

[freedommatrix]

My parents say there's definitely something wrong with me and I've been diagnosed with Aspergers but I wanna know what you guys think.

Ever since I was a child, I talked to myself. It didn't bother my parents until 2013 when I experienced extreme elation and talked 100mph. Looking back it was mania but I didn't know that at the time. Everyone seemed to say that I smiled all the time. EVERYONE (okay not everyone) but my teachers, classmates, friends of my parents when visiting them. It wasn't conscious and I wasn't trying to be positive, it seems the mania made me happy and it showed on my face. At night, I'd have conversations with myself but not because they were voices but I just feel like talking to myself.

I also had according to people and still do, an unusual way of sitting. When I sat in chairs, I sat at the edge of chairs in class and walked very stiffly with my arms to my body not moving them naturally. 2014 was when things got fucked up and I got violent for the first time ever. I experienced a low mood like never before.

Now, I'm still in the low mood in 2019 at 21. I regularly get my clothes dirty from eating (food stains), my mother says I walk like I've got a shit in my pants.

 

[c824767]

Could it be some of this? https://www.healthline.com/health/conversion-disorder
Jerry Espenson a character in Boston Legal, walks around like you describe and has Aspergers. This is a brilliant TV show that you might enjoy.

An attorney diagnosed with Asperger's syndrome, although his quirks seem to be a misrepresentation of the syndrome, being closer to Tourette's syndrome than Asperger's. These quirks include purring whenever he feels anxious and upset; constantly exclaiming "Bingo!" as an affirmative; hopping when excited; and awkwardly walking with his hands pressed to his thighs (which earned him the moniker "Hands Espenson" among the other CP&S attorneys). Since his diagnosis, Jerry has received mental and behavior modification therapy which has increased his confidence in dealing with people. Before his disorder was diagnosed, he was arrested for holding a knife to Shirley's throat after being denied partnership in the firm for the third time. Shirley dropped the charges against him after Alan promised to get Jerry the therapy he needed. After therapy, he founded his own successful law firm and opposed Alan Shore in several cases, defeating him in court despite Alan's employment of various tricks intended to rattle him. Jerry was able to use his firm and its client list as leverage to rejoin CP&S, moving from the Corporate Law department to Litigation, where he was surprisingly successful, to the delight of Alan and Shirley. Alan has even admitted that he considers Jerry to be one of the finest attorneys he has ever known. He made partner in the final season, following a declaration of support from Denny Crane and an eloquent speech of his own to the partners. Carl Sack, who had initially been dubious about him, was proud to extend the offer of partnership in the firm to Jerry. Jerry attended Harvard University, where he obtained J.D. and MBA degrees.