Discussion Anyone kind of Hoping to get the Coronavirus to ctb?

[Darkdreamer001]

I know this may souns morbid, but I've been wanting out of this hell place since I was a child for many reasons and the reasons keep on growing as I get older. I wanted to get nembutal but it seems hard to get with all the scammers, raids, and the high prices.
I feel bad for the people that lost their lives not just due to the Coronavirus but to wars, famine, and many other factors. Just gives more reasons to get off such a hostile planet. I know I may sound selfish but I've tried to tough things out for many years and tried different methods as to get over depression and anxiety. With all this trying it seems I might have a few descent days but the horror comes and has me in its grip and won't let go. I've come to the conclusion a long time ago that I didn't belong here even though I try to tell myself otherwise. Coworkers, classmates, and family members have all confirmed to me what I already have been feeling that I different from others. The only difference I can come up with is having a strong empathy for others and consciousness.
Well, any hooo....with all that said every year it seems that cold and flu season comes and certain syraind seem to be deadly to some. I kind of see this as an opportunity to get out here. I live in the U.S. and it hasn't really got spread out like some places has it. I'm not wishing death on anyone but myself. Like I said I know this sounds strange and I don't like seeing people in pain but I would like to get out here as peaceful as possible.

 

[epsilon]

Normally you won't die if you get Corona especially if you are healthy.

 

[LetItBleed]

For myself, but I think also for quite a few other people, the very act of suicide is not all about dying but maybe more about deciding how and when you go. When you kill yourself, you gain the freedom and control you might have lacked during your time alive. There's a real performative act around the whole thing - waiting to catch a deadly disease, I think, is quite different than killing yourself.

But maybe that's just me.

 

[crazy1]

It's definitely crossed my mind, dying by the coronavirus, so your not alone. I started taking a strong inhaler for asthma a few weeks ago because I couldn't breath that good and I was thinking I should stop taking it then it might kill me, but in reality the chances of actually dying from it is so small, and being able to breath is also kind of nice.

 

[Aliali1992]

Corona virus isn't deadly as you think. 80% of people who had it experienced just mild symptoms. Only 3,4% died. Almost all of them are elderly with many other diseases.

 

[a.n.kirillov]

everytime I was out in public touching doorknobs and shit I come back home and think of washing my hands ... then I just think, nah who cares I want to ctb anyway. So maybe passively? Very unrealistic though and I would try to put myself out of my misery being that sick especially

 

[Darkdreamer001]

For myself, but I think also for quite a few other people, the very act of suicide is not all about dying but maybe more about deciding how and when you go. When you kill yourself, you gain the freedom and control you might have lacked during your time alive. There's a real performative act around the whole thing - waiting to catch a deadly disease, I think, is quite different than killing yourself.

But maybe that's just me.

I'm not really waiting to catch a deadly disease...I'm still looking into the amitriptyline cocktail, sn, nembutal, and ghb method. I just figured if I got it that it would be convenient instead risking jail time, being scammed, and failure to ctb.

 

[k75]

Even if you manage to catch it, you'll probably just be super miserable for awhile. The flu kills many more people. A good percentage of colds are actually caused by other strains of coronavirus, and nobody dies from a cold. It's just not as deadly as everyone thinks for most people.

 

[a.n.kirillov]

Still, we could make a coronavirus megathread

edit: sorry, coronamethod megathread

 

[LittleJem]

I have thought about this, but it's not that deadly,

 

[GoodPersonEffed]

As far as wondering if others have thought about this, you can search coronavirus here on the site, there have been multiple recent threads. :)

 

[lostangel]

Yes and no. I wouldn't mind dying via coronavirus. But at the same time, it sounds miserable. It's like the bad flu so if I do catch it since I have a weak immune system I could die. If I do die that way then I can't be known as the guy who killed himself.

 

[PoisonedJuliet]

Ummmmmmmmmmm... Does it make me a bad person for saying yes? I wouldn't want anyone else to get sick but then I wouldn't have to do any planning or waiting.

 

[soakmeinbleach]

yep,, was my first thought,,, kill me with the virus instead of someone who wants to live

 

[departing]

Unfortunately, I'm probably too health to actually pass away from it. It would be nice, though.

 

[Throwmyselfaway]

I do rideshare. I come in contact with a lot of people including travelers. I'm not aggressively trying to get it but if I did So be it.

 

[HadEnough1974]

I know this may souns morbid, but I've been wanting out of this hell place since I was a child for many reasons and the reasons keep on growing as I get older. I wanted to get nembutal but it seems hard to get with all the scammers, raids, and the high prices.
I feel bad for the people that lost their lives not just due to the Coronavirus but to wars, famine, and many other factors. Just gives more reasons to get off such a hostile planet. I know I may sound selfish but I've tried to tough things out for many years and tried different methods as to get over depression and anxiety. With all this trying it seems I might have a few descent days but the horror comes and has me in its grip and won't let go. I've come to the conclusion a long time ago that I didn't belong here even though I try to tell myself otherwise. Coworkers, classmates, and family members have all confirmed to me what I already have been feeling that I different from others. The only difference I can come up with is having a strong empathy for others and consciousness.
Well, any hooo....with all that said every year it seems that cold and flu season comes and certain syraind seem to be deadly to some. I kind of see this as an opportunity to get out here. I live in the U.S. and it hasn't really got spread out like some places has it. I'm not wishing death on anyone but myself. Like I said I know this sounds strange and I don't like seeing people in pain but I would like to get out here as peaceful as possible.

I'm already working on that. I'm only having sex with Asians now. ;)

New arrivals from China in the front of the line!! ;)

 

[your pathologist]

Has definitely crossed my mind in a kind of "Haha what if..." way

 

[Ardesevent]

I'm hoping it will. A case just popped up in my area, and I've always had a weak immune system, so I have a chance.

 

[TAW122]

I wouldn't wish to get it. The death rate for this is slim and even less for a physically healthy individual (even those who aren't physically fit). Also, I have no interest in being violently ill, having to be quarantined and spend weeks in a hospital or ER to recover. With that said, I'd rather take a bullet to the brainstem to CTB.

 

[selfhater]

i was but i heard it's painful like infection and stuff u suffer from before u die idk

 

[aloneintheworld]

Lol when I saw this I started laughing so hard and then was like same. Infect someone who wants to die instead of someone who wants to live

 

[lanitoasmr]

I prefer a faster way

 

[Darkdreamer001]

I'm already working on that. I'm only having sex with Asians now. ;)

New arrivals from China in the front of the line!! ;)

Make sure it's unprotected sex.

 

[Cjaf]

I know this may souns morbid, but I've been wanting out of this hell place since I was a child for many reasons and the reasons keep on growing as I get older. I wanted to get nembutal but it seems hard to get with all the scammers, raids, and the high prices.
I feel bad for the people that lost their lives not just due to the Coronavirus but to wars, famine, and many other factors. Just gives more reasons to get off such a hostile planet. I know I may sound selfish but I've tried to tough things out for many years and tried different methods as to get over depression and anxiety. With all this trying it seems I might have a few descent days but the horror comes and has me in its grip and won't let go. I've come to the conclusion a long time ago that I didn't belong here even though I try to tell myself otherwise. Coworkers, classmates, and family members have all confirmed to me what I already have been feeling that I different from others. The only difference I can come up with is having a strong empathy for others and consciousness.
Well, any hooo....with all that said every year it seems that cold and flu season comes and certain syraind seem to be deadly to some. I kind of see this as an opportunity to get out here. I live in the U.S. and it hasn't really got spread out like some places has it. I'm not wishing death on anyone but myself. Like I said I know this sounds strange and I don't like seeing people in pain but I would like to get out here as peaceful as possible.

I know the Corona virus doesn't kill most people but I'd like to get it so I can be in quarantine for two weeks with a 'solid reason'. When you're physically sick people are very understanding and caring. It's different with mental illnesses, especially when it takes long to get better. It would be nice to be taken care of without feeling like a burden or a weak attention seeker.

Sorry for my English btw, it's not my first language

 

[aloneintheworld]

I know the Corona virus doesn't kill most people but I'd like to get it so I can be in quarantine for two weeks with a 'solid reason'. When you're physically sick people are very understanding and caring. It's different with mental illnesses, especially when it takes long to get better. It would be nice to be taken care of without feeling like a burden or a weak attention seeker.

Sorry for my English btw, it's not my first language

Hate to be the bearer of bad news but I doubt it would play out like that. I feel like corona virus sounds like a good way to go in theory but truth be told it wouldn't be the chances of you dying would be very slim unless you are elderly or already have a severe illness like cancer etc.
I used to think my family And friends would care when I got sick with something serious and physical but it pushed them away more I've never been more alone they've pretty much forgotten about me and don't care I could be dead for a week and I don't think anyone would know. I feel like corona would be a similar way to go because people wouldn't want to catch it from you. You're better off having your health then wishing yourself an physical illness. With that being said I hope you find peace
Also for everyone who wants corona anyways which I don't know why because it's a slim chance you'll die and you'll just likely suffer in chaos and add to a multiplier to infect more people. Anyways a cruise ship is your best bet

 

[Cjaf]

Hate to be the bearer of bad news but I doubt it would play out like that. I feel like corona virus sounds like a good way to go in theory but truth be told it wouldn't be the chances of you dying would be very slim unless you are elderly or already have a severe illness like cancer etc.
I used to think my family And friends would care when I got sick with something serious and physical but it pushed them away more I've never been more alone they've pretty much forgotten about me and don't care I could be dead for a week and I don't think anyone would know. I feel like corona would be a similar way to go because people wouldn't want to catch it from you. You're better off having your health then wishing yourself an physical illness. With that being said I hope you find peace
Also for everyone who wants corona anyways which I don't know why because it's a slim chance you'll die and you'll just likely suffer in chaos and add to a multiplier to infect more people. Anyways a cruise ship is your best bet

I understand your point of view and I wouldnt want to infect other people, especially if they are physically vulnerable.

I had swine flu in the past. During the 2010 outbreak and was in quarantine. Physically it was hell but it was nice to be taken care of without feeling like an attention seeker. Not only by family but also the nurses and doctors were concerned. It felt warm and safe. Hence my previous post on this subject.

The risk of infecting others isn't worth it though.

 

[aloneintheworld]

I understand your point of view and I wouldnt want to infect other people, especially if they are physically vulnerable.

I had swine flu in the past. During the 2010 outbreak and was in quarantine. Physically it was hell but it was nice to be taken care of without feeling like an attention seeker. Not only by family but also the nurses and doctors were concerned. It felt warm and safe. Hence my previous post on this subject.

The risk of infecting others isn't worth it though.

I never had that whenever I was sick I was always seen as a burden probably because I'm so immunosuppressed that I would never fully recover after each illness. Even being so immunosuppressed I am not sure corona would kill me I mean the flu never had just feel like I'd have it longer and suffer with it more. Nevertheless I am glad you've had different experiences though feeling like a burden 24/7 for things out of your control like being sick while you're already suffering is the worse.

 

[Cjaf]

I never had that whenever I was sick I was always seen as a burden probably because I'm so immunosuppressed that I would never fully recover after each illness. Even being so immunosuppressed I am not sure corona would kill me I mean the flu never had just feel like I'd have it longer and suffer with it more. Nevertheless I am glad you've had different experiences though feeling like a burden 24/7 for things out of your control like being sick while you're already suffering is the worse.

That must have been extremely hard and I'm sorry you had to experience that. That makes your opinion on getting Corona very understandable.
And I agree, feeling like a burden is terrible. Especially when it's something out of your control

 

[Grandexit]

You're more likely to just get sick, rack up huge medical bills and maybe some permanent lung damage. Too slow, painful and unreliable.