Venting Anyone here work on projects then abandon them?

[Deleted member 94706]

I want to work on my youtube channel, but I don't have any motivation to finish a script, yet I have a shit ton of ideas for videos. anyone feel the same way?

 

[-Link-]

Yes! I feel like the only time I've ever finished projects or followed through on ideas is when it's been required for a paycheck.

I'm presently sitting on multiple unfinished projects. Maybe I lack the confidence to actually see them through? Like, as long as it's unfinished, it's technically a work in progress. But once it's done, I open myself up to the judgement and criticism that can come with involving other people? I'm not sure.

 

[deletedaccount30982]

All the time. I get hyperfixated on something for a period of time and want to do nothing but that thing. And then one day I just stop. Where ever I am in the project is where I leave it. I almost always circle back around to it, months or years later, but I make my way back.

 

[Deleted member 94706]

All the time. I get hyperfixated on something for a period of time and want to do nothing but that thing. And then one day I just stop. Where ever I am in the project is where I leave it. I almost always circle back around to it, months or years later, but I make my way back.

for me i obsess over something and spend hours a day sometimes up to like 6+ hours then give up then come back obsess again give up then eventually completely give up so i end up spending hours on nothing

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Some of what I'm doing right now to get my affairs in order is to get rid of multiple "projects" that I started, but never finished, nor will ever finish.

 

[Deleted member 94706]

Some of what I'm doing right now to get my affairs in order is to get rid of multiple "projects" that I started, but never finished, nor will ever finish.

must feel horrible working on something then getting rid of it

 

[Lookingtoflyfree]

Some of what I'm doing right now to get my affairs in order is to get rid of multiple "projects" that I started, but never finished, nor will ever finish.

Same. I have interests I normally would say to develop as a hobby but I don't plan to be alive long enough.

The getting things in order scares me. as soon as I make the list of things to do I will have to start and I'm really scared. I don't know where the ending will happen. I am also devastated because my brain fog will make it inevitable I will need to do CTB within the next year. I honestly feel like I don't trust myself with my cognitive ability to end things properly, and ended up disabled by a failed attempt is horrific.

I feel so trapped between life and death, not doing either well. I just came home from an event where people were having a dinner party and I just... needed to run out of there, I felt allergic to talking and having to mask who I am is killing me. Autism is killing me. I wish my brain would explode for real and just end it all

 

[lnlybnny]

I'm very much like this. I get overwhelmed so easily. I stop most of the things I begin. It's frustrating but I don't know how else to be.

 

[Hunterer]

Well, I was creating a website to publish a story of my own, because I like to write. Initially, I was excited, because I was writing daily, which was helping me distract myself from the problems here at home most of the time. But, as the days went by, I stopped writing due to a lack of motivation. I still want to write, but I don't know if I'll be able to continue. My mind is very messy most of the time, not to mention that the desire to write is forcing me to give up on my projects. My initial idea was to write and post everything by the end of the year, but I don't know if I'll last until the end of the year in this shitty life.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

must feel horrible working on something then getting rid of it

Truth be told I haven't worked on any of them in years. I have 2 old car projects I started on, but stopped working on. Also, 2 motorcycle projects that I was going to get to "one of these days". I have an vintage electric piano that I started a complete restoration on, but that never got finished, either. There's more, but I'm not going to be able to clean up all my "mess". I'm only trying to take care of (get rid of) a few of the bigger projects, especially the titled vehicles. I could spend the rest of my living days just trying to get rid of all the projects I have, and all the "stuff" I've accumulated over the years. That's not going to happen. Basically, just trying to knock the tip off the iceberg, so there's less for someone else to have to deal with after I'm gone.

 

[-nobodyknows-]

Yeah, I do it all the time. I like to change things up

 

[Scythe]

I do it when Adhd depends I hyperfixates on smth, but I would go into the project knowing it's a distraction and never to be finished, so I don't care about it. I struggled with this problem more when I was younger. I have a main project I always come back to though. If I want to be remembered or at the very least leave something inpressive behind I better fucking stick to it.

 

[betternever2havbeen]

Yeah I throw everything away. I think it's because I have OCD and if something isn't "perfect" it's not good enough-seems like that's my approach to life as well. Maybe a bit of self-sabotage as well, because I'm not really talented in anything so I just chuck it. The only time I could ever see anything through was in school because I had to. I hope you find the motivation to get stuff done-having loads of ideas is what's most important! I don't know if I've ever had a good idea ever, I really struggle to be creative.

 

[MatrixPrisoner]

Adderall is the only thing that even remotely gives me a fighting chance to accompish things. But now that I have built up tolerance to taking it and withdrawals when I don't take it, it makes me even more suicidal.

 

[J&L383]

I want to work on my youtube channel, but I don't have any motivation to finish a script, yet I have a shit ton of ideas for videos. anyone feel the same way?

Sadly, so many projects started, many unfinished.

 

[Deleted member 94706]

Yeah I throw everything away. I think it's because I have OCD and if something isn't "perfect" it's not good enough-seems like that's my approach to life as well. Maybe a bit of self-sabotage as well, because I'm not really talented in anything so I just chuck it. The only time I could ever see anything through was in school because I had to. I hope you find the motivation to get stuff done-having loads of ideas is what's most important! I don't know if I've ever had a good idea ever, I really struggle to be creative.

Same with me, I want to make something that I am proud of, so I end trying to make something out of my level.

I used to work on games, but I would always get stuck programming a certain mechanic instead of just working on a simple game, I would give myself a hard time making a more complex game.

 

[uniqueusername4]

Yes. I have a course fully completed, even uploaded to the learning management system. All I have left to do is record 3 short videos and then I could publish and start selling it. I can barely move though. I think today I will finally be able to buy benzos off dn so at least I can say I did something productive.