anyone here want to CTB because they're middle aged neets with no significant others?

[crocune]

cant go do hard labor cuz my back hurts too much

cant go back to school cuz i open a textbook and its so boring

never built a career or had a white collar job so no luck there

never had a relationship so im forever alone

leeched off my parents my whole life and now realized i am truly hopeless at this age and there is no way out other than ctb.

if i manage to get SN im doing it immediately before i have to go back to school. if not im gonna find a place to jump

sorry mom

 

[Crow_88]

Similar. Just kind of useless without a way forward. An adult child.

 

[crocune]

Similar. Just kind of useless without a way forward. An adult child.

how did we end up like this? i had all the help and opportunities in the world given to me on a silver platter

 

[Crow_88]

how did we end up like this? i had all the help and opportunities in the world given to me on a silver platter

Same man. Same. I had girlfriends when I was younger, job opportunities. And I just burned it all without stopping to think about what I was doing. I know for me I just couldn't face reality and have some pretty severe undiagnosed mental conditions. All I know now is it is too late. No skills. No network. And a mind that tortures me.

 

[crocune]

Same man. Same. I had girlfriends when I was younger, job opportunities. And I just burned it all without stopping to think about what I was doing. I know for me I just couldn't face reality and have some pretty severe undiagnosed mental conditions. All I know now is it is too late. No skills. No network. And a mind that tortures me.

u asian?

 

[Crow_88]

u asian?

I'm not. Metis. White and indigenous mix.

u asian?

What about you?

 

[crocune]

I'm not. Metis. White and indigenous mix.

What about you?

Asian. Time to die

 

[cait_sith]

I am almost in the same situation like you. Not middle aged yet but very close, would like to die before getting there. At least I was able to chill out a lot.

 

[neonzebra]

Not middle aged yet but getting there.
Intelligent in terms of school but social struggles and lack of self esteem means no career, no happy relationships, not much going for me to attract anyone. When I was in 20s and early 30s none of that seemed to matter because I could drift around doing odd jobs. Now suddenly realising others my age have families, cars, homes, businesses, hobbies they're good at.

 

[idelttoilfsadness21]

I am so sorry you guys are suffering this much

 

[Gangrel]

im 27 and feel middle aged already cause imma ctb soon anyway lol and yeah, my mental illness stole my life from me, i get enjoyment from nothing

 

[crocune]

I am almost in the same situation like you. Not middle aged yet but very close, would like to die before getting there. At least I was able to chill out a lot.

Yeah. This is either a door or a wall for me and it's looking more and more like a wall

 

[JamieD]

I am almost 52, was an only child and lived with Mum. She died 3 years ago and I have achieved nothing. The desire to CTB gets stronger with every day

 

[crocune]

I am almost 52, was an only child and lived with Mum. She died 3 years ago and I have achieved nothing. The desire to CTB gets stronger with every day

You're basically future me. But the fact you've managed to hang on for so much longer is crazy to me. I can't imagine staying in this world like this.

 

[divinemistress36]

Not middle age but feel like it Im 37 and never moved out of parents and cant work cause of mental illness and brain injury. Seeing people around me with houses, partners, and careers hurt like Hell

 

[Crow_88]

Asian. Time to die

May you go in peace

 

[Blue Dream]

I'm a NEET that can't enjoy things, so I don't have anything I can use as an Ikigai. That's the long and short of it.

 

[Crow_88]

Not middle aged yet but getting there.
Intelligent in terms of school but social struggles and lack of self esteem means no career, no happy relationships, not much going for me to attract anyone. When I was in 20s and early 30s none of that seemed to matter because I could drift around doing odd jobs. Now suddenly realising others my age have families, cars, homes, businesses, hobbies they're good at.

Yeah, that's what happened to me. Very similar. I'd just float along from job to job. And my brain made me believe I'd be able to float and do the same things forever. And then one day I realized everyone was married, had kids, had jobs. And yes, had skills and talented hobbies. From there, everything began rapidly falling apart. Now I'm an anxiety ridden mess that suffers with agoraphobia and paranoia. The other thing was I just couldn't keep a job. I'd either get fired or leave when I got bored. And as I aged, I started getting fired more often.

 

[Schizo_turk]

the worst thing is when you become in your 70s and are incapeable of even holding a cup of water, aging is bad for everyone but it's extra bad for loners who have no children or grand children to help them.

cant go do hard labor cuz my back hurts too much

cant go back to school cuz i open a textbook and its so boring

never built a career or had a white collar job so no luck there

never had a relationship so im forever alone

leeched off my parents my whole life and now realized i am truly hopeless at this age and there is no way out other than ctb.

if i manage to get SN im doing it immediately before i have to go back to school. if not im gonna find a place to jump

sorry mom

 

[Overwhelmed52]

I'm alone. I have some skills, but I don't have looks or confidence, so people don't believe I have any skills. I'm technically fine for now, but I'm so anxious about the future. I start thinking about what could happen, and then I think it will happen, and then I spin out into a spiral of anxiety and fear. I wasn't born with the popular gene, so I've never had many friends, and I ended burning bridges with most of the few I had because I thought I could tell they didn't like me as much as I liked them. I wish I hadn't done that now. I've tried joining a few clubs over the past three years, just to have a social connection, but I haven't been wanted. It seems like there's always one person looking to go after someone else in a group and for whatever reason I'm an easy target. You'd think that kind of thing would end in school, but apparently it doesn't. I have one relative I can call, but I'm worried they'll tire of me if I lean on them too much. I just wish this would end. I would like to fall asleep sometime and never wake up.