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Deleted member 1496
Student
- Aug 2, 2018
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Growing up, I had to compensate for my mom's sadness, listening to her vent about suicidal thoughts, her hard life, her bitterness, her misandry. I had to help with her work. For my dad, I had to compensate for his lack of English, doing his job's memos, reports, applications, taxes, even researching and deciding fixed rate or adjustable rate mortgage. So much risk, so much pressure.
Additionally, all my mom's yelling and my dad's mocking didn't help either. No one to turn to; I had to figure out everything on my own. Also, was molested by my sister. Life was so confusing and hard. Socially, tried but never felt connected. Been forgotten, used. Wanted to different things, but finances, work, health insurance needs required a different path.
And now with my disabled parent, I seem to be the only one able to research, understand, and make a decision. Even when my parents or siblings try to handle something, I have to come in, figure things out, and fix it when it doesn't work. I'm not talking only about small items, like an OS update gone wrong. I'm talking about items like hypoglycemic shock and legal documents. And getting accurate information is like pulling teeth. No friends to enjoy something on a day when I'm functioning and in a good mood. My life is simply a long list of To Do's. I'm so tired of taking care of other people's problems when no one helps me with mine. On My Own too much.
Additionally, all my mom's yelling and my dad's mocking didn't help either. No one to turn to; I had to figure out everything on my own. Also, was molested by my sister. Life was so confusing and hard. Socially, tried but never felt connected. Been forgotten, used. Wanted to different things, but finances, work, health insurance needs required a different path.
And now with my disabled parent, I seem to be the only one able to research, understand, and make a decision. Even when my parents or siblings try to handle something, I have to come in, figure things out, and fix it when it doesn't work. I'm not talking only about small items, like an OS update gone wrong. I'm talking about items like hypoglycemic shock and legal documents. And getting accurate information is like pulling teeth. No friends to enjoy something on a day when I'm functioning and in a good mood. My life is simply a long list of To Do's. I'm so tired of taking care of other people's problems when no one helps me with mine. On My Own too much.