What happened between your childhood and now? I guess if you really try, life can get better for you. But sometimes people get tired and life isnt really worth that much to keep fighting for.. but for you I think you've got a real shot. Especially since you yourself think that way. Be it suicide or a new chance at life, I hope you find your happiness soon
Thank you. I do hope that I still got a shot at life as I really wanna be a man who can one day say that I went through depression and kicked it's ass.
My main problem is my inferiority complex. Often when reading about it, people always say that you are stronger than you think. For me that's bullshit. I clearly am an idiot, because I can't understand anything, because i'm so fucking stupid. I don't wanna live like this and I don't know if it can be fixed. Maybe depression makes it hard to focus so when that is gone, I won't be so incompetent, but who knows.
If I can get over that, then I do have a really good shot at live as my other problems like being depressed, low self esteem and loneliness can be fixed.
I don't know if you asking what happened between my childhood and now was a rhetorical question, but I will still give a short answer. I went to 7th grade and made a few bad friends and became the school clown. This alienated me from others and life is now shit, because of it.
