Discussion Anyone embracing darkness/depression to lower SI and hasten CTB?

[Fadeawaaaay]

Same as title

 

[bed]

I've been self-sabotaging in some ways to make it worse for me.

 

[Insomniac]

The more you embrace depression... the stronger SI gets sadly.

postponing suicide only makes it harder to commit.

 

[StarryStarry]

I believe that as humans we have the natural instinct to survive. That's why it's so hard to just ctb. We keep hoping that things will get better - thinking maybe tomorrow it won't hurt as much. But the truth is that life doesn't get better. We might have a few "good" moments, but the overall aspect of life sucks. It's wrought with pain (both physical and emotional), disappointment, sadness and loneliness just to state a few.

 

[Grumpy Bear]

Yes, I spend a lot of time here while listening to what other people would consider depressing music.

The more you embrace depression... the stronger SI gets sadly.

postponing suicide only makes it harder to commit.

I wonder if others will agree with this.

 

[marinekiwi]

I believe that as humans we have the natural instinct to survive. That's why it's so hard to just ctb. We keep hoping that things will get better - thinking maybe tomorrow it won't hurt as much. But the truth is that life doesn't get better. We might have a few "good" moments, but the overall aspect of life sucks. It's wrought with pain (both physical and emotional), disappointment, sadness and loneliness just to state a few.

This guy got it just right.
I often find myself enjoying the moment, and then, the sudden realization that in the grand scheme of things, life still sucks bad in so many ways.
I just keep hoping that I would kinda feel better someday soon. It just doesn't happen.