Anyone else wishing they'd be murdered?

[Opichi]

Personally, not tortured but at least a quick death by someone else's hands. Or even drugged and killed if they were kind enough. Having the "comfort" of leaving it up to someone else is something I've always wanted but it's incredibly selfish and unobtainable.

 

[theodandel]

well it's a no from me, the one of the things that make me consider CTB is taking back the freedom that i lost. So if someone offed me that will be suck. But its a different story with hiring a hit on myself.

 

[missingpeace]

I know what you mean, all this stress of thinking when, where, how to CTB wouldn't be there. I wish someone would just strangle me or poison me and I will be done with it.

 

[downndone2]

I'd be fine taking a bullet for another... it would save me all this wasted time on figuring out how to successfully ctb

 

[Pluto]

Voluntary euthanasia is the dream. It could even be done in our sleep. No mess, no shock for others. Pure dignity.

That doesn't mean we can put our lives/deaths in the hands of thugs or murderers, though, as some have suggested. Best put that idea to rest.

 

[Forever Sleep]

Assisted suicide- yes. Murder- no- I think that would be pretty stressful for those left behind.

 

[theodandel]

Voluntary euthanasia is the dream. It could even be done in our sleep. No mess, no shock for others. Pure dignite.

That doesn't mean we can put our lives/deaths in the hands of thugs or murderers, though, as some have suggested. Best put that idea to rest.

i still wonder why is there not many campaign or act for it to be legal in more place.

 

[alice_0927]

I would be fine by that, a quick death. Hey at least I'm not the ungrateful child that kill myself

 

[HayBunny23]

Same, but I don't see it as murder. It would be assisted suicide.

 

[iceyogurt]

I think being murdered would reduce some of the feelings of guilt and selfishness in a way considering people close to me. Just a quick gunshot or a few and this would be all over, I would take it. And yeah, then I won't be known as the son that killed himself to my parents.

 

[WorthlessTrash]

If it's a relatively quick death, yes. I'd rather someone kill me so SI and guilt isn't a factor.

 

[LocalAngel]

Often. Not sure why other then the desire to CTB, but it's a semi daily thought.

 

[breakingpoint]

All the time, I'll be walking down the street hoping someone just runs up behind me and stabs. That's the main intrusive thought and the other one is wishing I would contract some sort of fatal disease like cancer or when I see people terminally ill from anything, I'll get jealous that's not me.

 

[PeacefulRest]

The act of suicide seems hard and unnatural to me. The thought of drinking my poison seems impossible, though I know I'll do it when the time comes, when I have no more time left to live.

I've thought over the time I've been contemplating and planning my death by my own hand: How convenient it would be if someone murdered me or I died a sudden accidental death, like in a car crash.

This thread made me reconsider the others who would be shocked by my sudden departure, especially if murdered. There is compassion here, and empathy. I like that.

 

[outrider567]

Yes, but only if I was shot in the head while being asleep, not seeing it coming at all would be acceptable

 

[cellar door]

Yes.

I don't want to be tortured and stuff, but I wouldn't care if someone stabs me

 

[heyrabu]

I always wish for someone, anyone to just kill me. That way, I have indesputeable "excuse" to go out from this world to the next.
Like, I'm thinking about how anyone that's close to me would feel if I just one day dies because I choose to? They'll probably blame themself or maybe thinking that I'm "selfish" for doing that. If I suddenly died because I got killed, no one that I care about can blame themself about my death, right? Even if it's a brutal and painful death, I would still choose to be killed by some maniac than ctb. Sadly, I've been waiting my whole life for someone that want to kill me, and there was none lol so here I am, searching my way to ctb..

 

[Shadowlord900]

As much as how badly I want my life to be over, I think even being shot in the head while asleep I'd be too scared off. Even feeling just a split-second of extreme pain is too much for me. I prefer being in control of my own life, including how it ends.

 

[alivefornow]

Not really. However, as some have said above, I have fantasized about hiring some dude to shoot me when I'm least expecting it. Sounds stupid but so does CTB in any other way, to non-suicidal people. So what's the difference?

 

[Hopeliss]

if I saw a suspicious guy hanging around at the corner store I wouldn't run away so yeah

 

[RUPA]

seems it happened before

Man Gets 48 Years for Murdering Teen Who Allegedly Hired Him on Craigslist to Kill Her

Joseph Lopez accepted a deal from prosecutors and was sentenced to 48 years for the murder of 19-year-old Natalie Bollinger

people.com

 

[violetchiwawa]

I'd like to be murdered and tortured for my own personal reasons but ideally I'd die by terrible accident. Having a family member murdered is super traumatizing

 

[another@]

I don't want nuclear war because I know it would likely lead to death by radiation poisoning or the human atrocities that typically happen after tragedy which are much worse. But I often wonder what it would be if a nuclear bomb were to just fall in my home specifically.
I suspect one could hire a hitman for themselves, but obviously, if that type of lucrative deal were in us posters' hands, there wouldn't be anyone here to post. But it is a nice fantasy. Also the one where there's just a guy waiting around at the bridge to push you off.

 

[touhoufan]

I had a period where I'd pray to be murdered every night. I put up an ad on Craigslist begging for someone to kill me and I got dozens of emails replying to it (kind of unsettling since I'm a girl…) but oh well now Ive just taken for account that if you want something done you just have to do it yourself

 

[another40seconds]

all the time. one of my biggest fears and the reason i havent attempted more is because i fear christianity and the afterlife of heaven and hell, and in the case that my fears are well-placed, i would be going to hell. in christianity you go to hell for suicide. i sincerely do wish i was murdered, even being stabbed to death, a painful death is fine so long as i am killed.

 

[death song]

all the time. one of my biggest fears and the reason i havent attempted more is because i fear christianity and the afterlife of heaven and hell, and in the case that my fears are well-placed, i would be going to hell. in christianity you go to hell for suicide. i sincerely do wish i was murdered, even being stabbed to death, a painful death is fine so long as i am killed.

I struggle with these same issues regarding the afterlife. However, it seems as if suicide being a direct ticket to hell depends upon which branch of Christianity one subscribes to. I think Catholics believe this strongly. However many Protestant faiths don't believe suicide is an unforgivable sin. However they do utilize the 10 Commandments route which says thou shalt not commit murder. There is a school of thought that by committing suicide one is violating this commandment by murdering themself.

 

[hrsprayqn]

Personally, not tortured but at least a quick death by someone else's hands. Or even drugged and killed if they were kind enough. Having the "comfort" of leaving it up to someone else is something I've always wanted but it's incredibly selfish and unobtainable.

100%. Either the idea of being murdered or making it somehow look accidental.

The only problem I feel with it is that the burden that may have upon the murderer. Silly, I know, since I won't be around to see the consequences of it, but it still plays heavily on my mind.

 

[Wkoncuodejde]

I would really like that

 

[hellispink]

nothing assures you they won't torture you. People are evil and they love to make others suffer. I would not want to be murdered at all. Death for me is something very personal I must handle myself.

 

[spinningmyself]

I would actually be ok with being murdered, it would seem tragic I am sure to my family but I think knowing I chose to die would be worse for them. I have already ruined my husband's life and I really don't want to traumatize my kids. They are all grown but I don't think that is going to make anything easier for them. Now that my car is gone I am going to have to figure out another way for it to at least look like it could have been an accident. Yes being murdered would be fine with me.