We don't know what can happen tomorrow. Maybe the world ends and we all die. But perhaps we know certain things will go to shit at some point and we don't want to face that and ctb before those things happen. Or wait till things get worse so ctb is more logical?
Totally! I feel horrible just by thinking about my mother's death or me having a cancer or something like that, for example. I would choose to live longer if we knew that the world would end in a couple of months, would be awesome to die drinking, smoking and watching something so big. Unfortunately we don't know, so I decided that my time has come. An hour ago I went to the local (I live in Brazil) chemical store but It's closed due to the new yeas eve. I'm going there again in two days, hopefully I will get my SN.
I fear future, it's not bright.. Everything is getting worse globally, it is serious, climate change will cause economical struggles all over the world (it's already happening) and exponential growth can't go on forever. Right wing governments and dictators are ruling the most of the world.
I have a feeling that it's not going to be fine at all.
When it was 2000 I was so naive, I thought in 2020 the society will be much more humanitarian and mature. How wrong I was.
I have a feeling that it's not going to be fine at all.
When it was 2000 I was so naive, I thought in 2020 the society will be much more humanitarian and mature. How wrong I was.
Shero
Experienced
- Dec 19, 2019
- 274
Yes, i fear worsening of physical and mental pain. I can't take more, its already unbearable.
waterbottleman
Not a person
- Sep 30, 2019
- 721
Would be a relief if some life ending event happened like a comet smacking into earth or a nuclear bomb going off right where I am.
Not that I want to see other people die, but rather because the responsibility of my own death would be taken completely out of my hands and it would just happen. No more struggling and waiting, my life would just end.
Girobatol
Specialist
- Sep 9, 2019
- 313
You are totally right. World politics are fucked up.
not-2-b-the-answer
Archangel
- Mar 23, 2018
- 9,311
Anyone else wants to ctb before things get worse?
Hell Yeah !!!
Hell Yeah !!!
Xaphous
hikikomori
- Nov 11, 2018
- 550
Yes the brain damage is already irreversible
Nemeshisu
Experienced
- Dec 25, 2019
- 236
Yes, that's one of my reasons to CTB so early. I can picture my life getting worse. No, I am sure that it will get worse if I stay any time longer. I suffer from childhood trauma that severely damaged my ability to trust others. I don't think that I could form any healthy relationship with anyone in future. I am also scared that I may not find any employment in future, or that climate on Earth becomes even worse than it already is so life would be even more unbearable.
Fragile
Broken
- Jul 7, 2019
- 1,496
yeah, the future looks very grim not only for me but for most of the world in general.
my condition is not going to improve, in fact, it will inevitably get worse and i'm already seeing it, i'm ending it before i get to a point where i can't physically CTB.
and when talking about this world in general, we have a very small amount of people with way too much power and influence over the our lives and they only grow even more disgustingly powerful by the day, an unavoidable environmental crisis that we have realistically no way to revert because the already mentioned people at the top don't care about others, mass mobilizations of people and protest worldwide that show just how bad things really are.
in a way i'm glad that i'm ending it before it gets too bad, but i really wanted to live a better life.
my condition is not going to improve, in fact, it will inevitably get worse and i'm already seeing it, i'm ending it before i get to a point where i can't physically CTB.
and when talking about this world in general, we have a very small amount of people with way too much power and influence over the our lives and they only grow even more disgustingly powerful by the day, an unavoidable environmental crisis that we have realistically no way to revert because the already mentioned people at the top don't care about others, mass mobilizations of people and protest worldwide that show just how bad things really are.
in a way i'm glad that i'm ending it before it gets too bad, but i really wanted to live a better life.
BPD Barbie
Visionary
- Dec 1, 2019
- 2,361
I'm prepared for things to get worse, I know there is still worse that can come. Granted I won't be around for much longer but whatever happens in the meantime happens.
Fly🦋
One day I'll be with the stars sleeping forever.
- Dec 30, 2019
- 59
BobbyPellitt
Leap of Faith
- Sep 4, 2019
- 83
I can barely think straight anymore because my delusions and anxiety grew worse each day. Time is ticking and I need to go soon before I'm no longer able to CTB
charlottewilts
read Dostoyevsky
- Jun 15, 2019
- 494
that's exactly what i'll be doing. fuck that pro-life shit, i'm quitting while things are still tolerable, don't want to wait until i'm feeling even worse (is that even possible anymore?)
elizabeth.luck
Eliminate your map.
- Mar 10, 2019
- 124
I wish I had done it sooner! Things only get worse. Rich get richer and poor get poorer. The nice middle class life doesn't exist anymore.
People just let this day come at you and enjoy the fireworks and drink something on the new year.
Dont stress to much. The end will come in one way or another
Dont stress to much. The end will come in one way or another
BPD Barbie
Visionary
- Dec 1, 2019
- 2,361
voyager
Don't you dare go hollow...
- Nov 25, 2019
- 965
Yeah, lets partey!! HNYSS
Seriously though, if life decides to throw any more shit at me, I'm done. Don't see the point in struggling anymore, and that's all I have to say about that.
Seriously though, if life decides to throw any more shit at me, I'm done. Don't see the point in struggling anymore, and that's all I have to say about that.
i fear the future and what it will do to me. time is ticking, best to do it as soon as possible.
I wanted ctb before things got worse and I lost my dignity. But unfortunately I'm too scared. It seems that I don't want to live yet I don't want to die. This problem plagues me every minute. I guess life will have to get so bad so I can ctb through the fear.
Fragile
Broken
- Jul 7, 2019
- 1,496
24 but already living with the body of someone 40 years older than me according to some doctors.
Green Destiny
Life isn't worth the trouble.
- Nov 16, 2019
- 862
I certainly would not wan't to be around when the earth decides to have enough of our collective shit and let's mother nature finish us off, or when we decide to blow ourselves up to oblivion. Plus my body's on a timer, won't be long before i'll be in constant pain just from using my hands or getting up out of a chair. Plenty of reasons to not wan't to be around for when the shit hits the fan.
CyanideSoup
Memento mori
- Oct 1, 2019
- 463
Definitely. I get this tight feeling in my chest when I think about the future, and that things will just get worse. I hope to go soon so that it's not a worry anymore.
voyager
Don't you dare go hollow...
- Nov 25, 2019
- 965
Limbo is indeed an eternal dilemma. But it doesn't necessarily have to get worse. Eventually numbness and anhedonia can kill off the ties one still has with life. That's a little scary and somewhat depressing, but really one becomes indifferent. I believe there comes a point when it's easier to leave than tackle some problem life presents one with. So, while it may be different for all of us depending on the circumstances, it doesn't necessarily have to end in terror and desperation, imho.
BlueWidow
Visionary
- Oct 6, 2019
- 2,179
Definitely!
My SIL thinks she's helping me by dragging me around to visit her friends, all of whom are in their 70s or 80s and their spouses have all passed away. These women are all stuck living in some condition that they're unhappy in. And they're all so desperate for companionship and for someone to talk to them that when you go to leave, they plead for you to stay just another hour, even if you've been there all day.
I know if I were to live long enough and get a serious illness like cancer, or even if my thyroid issue were to get so serious that I went into a coma, I would have no one to take care of me the way I took care of my husband. Most of my family is already dead, and none of them would've taken care of me anyway. No one on my husband's side of the family would go to that much effort for me either.
It's sad because the way it seems to be is that you work and struggle your whole life. Then, if you do manage to live to an old age, you end up getting sick and you're at the mercy of people who most likely don't give a damn about you or are just hanging around you so they can get their hands on whatever money you have when you die. Plus, you get to experience your spouse and your friends and family dying before you.
I don't know why anyone would think it was a blessing to live to be old.
My SIL thinks she's helping me by dragging me around to visit her friends, all of whom are in their 70s or 80s and their spouses have all passed away. These women are all stuck living in some condition that they're unhappy in. And they're all so desperate for companionship and for someone to talk to them that when you go to leave, they plead for you to stay just another hour, even if you've been there all day.
I know if I were to live long enough and get a serious illness like cancer, or even if my thyroid issue were to get so serious that I went into a coma, I would have no one to take care of me the way I took care of my husband. Most of my family is already dead, and none of them would've taken care of me anyway. No one on my husband's side of the family would go to that much effort for me either.
It's sad because the way it seems to be is that you work and struggle your whole life. Then, if you do manage to live to an old age, you end up getting sick and you're at the mercy of people who most likely don't give a damn about you or are just hanging around you so they can get their hands on whatever money you have when you die. Plus, you get to experience your spouse and your friends and family dying before you.
I don't know why anyone would think it was a blessing to live to be old.
I never thought things would get as bad as they are now but here I am. I wish I had ctb at 14 and definitely at 22 to spare myself this needless suffering and 6 more pointless years. If I don't kill myself my inevitable end will be dying totally alone in pain in a nursing home or something and I'll be damn if I ever let that happen!
