I have a set date, but I keep bouncing around on methodology. I wanna be dramatic and drown or something but also I wanna just lay down and go to sleep and make it stop so I'm kinda favoring sn. Anyone else torn on exactly how? And favorites or failures?
I'm only torn on how because I can't get myself to do the most painless and easily accessable option. I'm wondering if I could get myself to do SN. It may be easier to swallow some pills and powder than to keep this tourniquet tight enough around my neck that I black out
Moonicide
ᴘʜᴀꜱᴇꜱ ᴏꜰ ᴛʜᴇ ᴍᴏᴏɴ
- Nov 19, 2019
- 802
When I joined here I was considering doing the carbon dioxide method. As people have mentioned it is usually peaceful and you can die in your sleep, but have to do it in a very closed area to succeed. But I also realized it was a very time consuming method compared to SN for me. I would have had to buy a tent, bucket, chimney starter, coal. And I'd have to prepare it outside late at night while my family is asleep. What if they see me? Anyone could wake up in the middle of the night and look out the window and catch me.
I switched to SN as it is another peaceful method, and you fall asleep and die quickly, etc. Not only that, but I can do it much more discreetly. I won't have to go out or set anything up besides taking pills and mixing SN into the water. There was no way I could get my hands on N, so I've settled with SN. It is very affordable and that is why many people have chose this method.
I switched to SN as it is another peaceful method, and you fall asleep and die quickly, etc. Not only that, but I can do it much more discreetly. I won't have to go out or set anything up besides taking pills and mixing SN into the water. There was no way I could get my hands on N, so I've settled with SN. It is very affordable and that is why many people have chose this method.
I'm writing about my ctb daily when I journal to be able to plan and work out my thoughts and the details about it better. I want to be one of those people that didn't leave a reckless ctb. I want it to look planned and not sloppy.
LMLN
Paragon
- Aug 10, 2019
- 929
I have my date, and was completely set on it. But with me, once I set my mind to something, unless I am absolutely forced otherwise, I need to execute it exactly as I planned. Luckily things fell into place for me that I am able to CTB exactly how I want to as long as it is delivered anyway. N with Meto. But, it may not be here in time it seems. So now my anxiety and depression are overwhelming me a lot as I may have to endure this anguish longer than I had been planning. But honestly for me, picking my method and date were the easy parts.
Either hanging or sn, i have no other methods. Just gotta get through that si
