Venting Anyone else spend their time wishing for death from "divine intervention"?

[Lostkitten1]

Ex: hoping a plane/satellite/tree/meteor/ufo (unidentified falling object) comes crashing through your roof, or hoping you catch some kind of terminal illness, etc. Seems most days I wake up disappointed I didn't die in my sleep or something, although that would require sleeping which is something that doesn't happen often now. Just my luck I guess, couldn't ctb myself and now I can't even sleep long enough to try dying in it.

Meh. Maybe sleep is overrated. Life certainly is.

 

[Painless_end]

Yes

 

[shootingsweetrolls]

Every second of every single day, yes.

 

[affinity]

hoping you catch some kind of terminal illness

I've watched, wow, A LOT of documentaries on folks who have terminal illnesses and even they don't escape the conflicting thoughts of wanting to be done versus that panicked feeling that you're not quite ready. Then there is the physical pain and if you're not in a DwD state or country, you get to look forward to the slow march once you require hospice.

Now a meteor we didn't know was coming pulverized us all, we can talk

 

[Jacket]

I don't really wish or hope for anything anymore. Sure it would be nice, but what are the chances? I never had any luck or things going the way I'd like to, so a tree branch falling down and cracking open my skull or a drunk truck driver splattering me on the road is just way too outlandish. False hopes like that hurt more than anything, since you are inevitably disappointed when it does not happen.

 

[arainydancer]

Yeah, I sometimes wish like a murderer comes into my room and slit my throat open in my sleep or a car loses control and smashes into my room and kill me in my home. Would be a lot nicer than just waking up in the morning living the same empty existence again. I really wouldn't mind dying!

 

[Acceptance]

I wouldn't wish it upon anyone else but I would love to instantly die to natural causes or "divine intervention". But if it isn't instant at that point If im 100% going to die quickly, the pain for however long I wouldn't mind enduring besides I would have no choice anyways.

 

[Rational man]

I dont believe in devine intervention. Why would the 'Devine' inflict punishment of disease upon me and my mother?. I cannot believe that the omnipresent, omnipotent all knowing deviness would sanction such awfulness!.

Life is certain, death is guaranteed for everyone.❤ Its just the way of fhe cosmos.

 

[Apricity]

I've had passing thoughts, but haven't actually spent any real time on it. The chances of that happening randomly, on it's own, are slim. We'd have a better chance helping it along, which can be done just by engaging in risky behavior. Party, drink, do drugs, have unprotected sex, get into fights, etc.

 

[lostmyhope86]

every night before i sleep i ask to take my life and give to somebody that really care.

 

[Judah]

The way in which I have survived life and death situations is absurd, I think that is why I want to die indirectly. Either due to a crash or some explosion near me, but I still believe that it is something possible, I remember that last year a restaurant exploded very close to where I live, there were no deaths since it was quite night.

 

[FuneralCry]

I do wish to die in my sleep every night. I want a peaceful death. Suicide is difficult as we are programmed to survive. If it was easier to leave, I would already be gone. However a part of me wants to choose when I die, on my own terms rather than my life being taken away randomly. My death is the one thing I can have control over. We all deserve the option of euthanasia, a peaceful exit at a time of our own choosing. None of us should have to resort to painful methods that could fail.

 

[Snake of Eden]

Yes for sure. During sleep and without any awareness of the process

 

[MeltedJello]

Yep. I just want an instant death.

 

[affinity]

every night before i sleep i ask to take my life and give to somebody that really care.

Whenever I've seriously contemplated death, I've regularly thought, "Well, God/the Universe, why can't I or couldn't I have given my time to those who truly deserved the extra time?"

In all honesty, I haven't don't anything of true merit and I just feel like I'm wasting time/space/resources currently. I would be embarrassed to tell anyone how I spend my days.

I used to believe we all had a purpose and it's our mission to discover same and learn particular lessons in order to advance our consciousness. But that's a discussion point for another thread, so I'll stop

 

[Seiba]

No, the chances of something like that happening to me are slim to none. If I need to leave I will have to accept being complicit in my death and put in the effort to die.

 

[motel rooms]

Ex: hoping a plane/satellite/tree/meteor/ufo (unidentified falling object) comes crashing through your roof, or hoping you catch some kind of terminal illness, etc.

 

[Lostkitten1]

Maybe "divine intervention" was a poor choice of words, but at least I'm not the only one wanting

 

[Secrets1]

So so badly. I was extremely close and got "saved". A fraction of % likely to live and it happened. Fucked up my life extra on top of that. As it was happening things went into slow motion, I realized, thought I ws going to die and felt extreme peace. Still confused about it all. It's awful that people who have full lives die of cancer when people in here would give anything to give them our ability to be alive and gladly take on the cancer. A medical condition exchange would be pretty cool.

 

[Lostkitten1]

The alien device from Babylon 5, heals by taking life from another. Shame such a device doesn't exist, imagine the good we could do

 

[mackav31i]

Ex: hoping a plane/satellite/tree/meteor/ufo (unidentified falling object) comes crashing through your roof, or hoping you catch some kind of terminal illness, etc. Seems most days I wake up disappointed I didn't die in my sleep or something, although that would require sleeping which is something that doesn't happen often now. Just my luck I guess, couldn't ctb myself and now I can't even sleep long enough to try dying in it.

Meh. Maybe sleep is overrated. Life certainly is.

I feel the exact same way as you do. I pray all day every day to die in my sleep, and every morning when I wake up I'm sad and disappointed.

 

[Distorted]

sometimes. i tend to focus more on what actions i can take myself. i, too, deprive myself of sleep in hopes of damaging my brain. i also starve myself. even if i were to get into an accident, that means i would probably get taken to a hospital and forced to "live" as a vegetable.

 

[LonelyBrazilian]

I hope someday some scientist invents a pill that kills instantly without pain.