Anyone Else not Struggle with Survival Instinct but Following Through

[Spectre]

I have no problem taking the SN or whatever but I always panic after and call for help. Mostly just out of fear. I'm wondering how common that is. I don't want to be alive and I usually regret getting help afterwards but the fear of death is so strong when it's imminent.

 

[b1cycle]

That is survival instinct. It's easy for you to drink the SN because you know you have a way out.

 

[Spectre]

That is survival instinct. It's easy for you to drink the SN because you know you have a way out.

oh rip this makes alot of sense

 

[QueerMelancholy]

Eh I'm gonna wait for a manic episode and take it right when I start feeling depressed. BWUAHAHAH

 

[Spectre]

Eh I'm gonna wait for a manic episode and take it right when I start feeling depressed. BWUAHAHAH

I'm thinking either that or wait for some personal tragedy to give it the extra kick

 

[QueerMelancholy]

I'm thinking either that or wait for some personal tragedy to give it the extra kick

Eh personal tragedy could work I suppose. But how will you do it with having to fast and stuff? =o

 

[Spectre]

Eh personal tragedy could work I suppose. But how will you do it with having to fast and stuff? =o

I'm doing high-dose opioid injection. From what I've read from junkies on Reddit it should be near instant.

 

[QueerMelancholy]

Oh ok I MEAN you answered your own question.

But I'm old I've been grieving my death forever. LOL

I dunno. It seems to me that some days I'll get a little window where everything is perfect and right and the only fear I have is failure.

Just go with the flow.

 

[Nikitatos]

CTB is best when you truly have no options left. No friends, family, money, bad health, etc. With any reasonable hope left, it makes it tougher.

Personally, I've pulled the trigger a few times (metaphorically speaking), so I have the confidence I can do it. I just didn't have access to the right information in the past.