Discussion Anyone else not really able to cry/haven't cried in a while?

[Lil_Intro_Vert]

I'm pretty apathetic most of the time, and i haven't had a good strong cry in over a year probably. I just shut my emotions away and I'm not sure how to bring em back out. Didn't even cry after attempting, just felt nothing lol. Hopefully I'm not the only one like this

 

[Redt2go]

I'm not really good at empathy but here's what gingerplum said to me
https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/a-few-more-years.10624/#post-196465

 

[15dec]

Sometimes. I cried a little bit about something today. Now I'm just sitting here still dwelling on it, but feeling absolutely nothing. I know I should at least feel some kind of sadness or anxiety but there's nothing. It'll probably crop up again in a few days and tear me apart but for now I'm just numb.

 

[creationisdeath]

I haven't done in years. I don't seem to be capable of that. I got beaten and abused and haven't.

Seems like it would feel good to do so at times but I can't. I do feel nothing most of the time. Sometimes hopeless. Sometimes angry.

 

[Lil_Intro_Vert]

I'm not really good at empathy but here's what gingerplum said to me
https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/a-few-more-years.10624/#post-196465

thank you, those are some cool words

Sometimes. I cried a little bit about something today. Now I'm just sitting here still dwelling on it, but feeling absolutely nothing. I know I should at least feel some kind of sadness or anxiety but there's nothing. It'll probably crop up again in a few days and tear me apart but for now I'm just numb.

i feel that, the knowledge that i should be feeling something but still not feeling anything. I can't tell quite how much i like/dislike it yet tbh, hope you feel better *hugs*

I haven't done in years. I don't seem to be capable of that. I got beaten and abused and haven't.

Seems like it would feel good to do so at times but I can't. I do feel nothing most of the time. Sometimes hopeless. Sometimes angry.

Yeah, when emotions do crop up they tend to be negative ones. Abuse sucks, i hope you're in a better situation now fam

 

[therhydler]

Yes... It's exhausting not being able to cry. I also shut my emotions away. I feel like they are all frozen inside me. Destroying me

 

[creationisdeath]

Yeah, when emotions do crop up they tend to be negative ones. Abuse sucks, i hope you're in a better situation now fam

Better as in as close to killing myself as ever. I literally mean physical though. Frozen. I'm more disappointed if anything.

 

[21Neberg]

I haven't cried in a long time either. You're right in your post. We have shut our emotions off, and thus we don't have those strong emotions that lead to us crying. Instead we have this emptiness, this loneliness.

 

[TAW122]

I haven't really cried in many months and my longest streak without crying is about 4 years. I also find it really difficult to make myself cry on command. Usually, it would have to something that threatens my welfare or shakes me to my core in order for me to cry. There are a few times where I just broke down automatically despite actively fighting back tears.

 

[ctrl_alt_delete]

Funny, I was just thinking about this today. I don't think I've cried for the entirety of 2018. Really wish I could, because I feel like crying pretty much all the time.

 

[leaps]

Yes it's a painful dilemma

 

[Moth]

I have, but I cry at the weirdest things,, I cried because I had to throw away some mushrooms I felt guilty that I'd let them go bad, and hadn't let them live up their full potential . I'm also an angry crier , which really fucks with my punk attitude

 

[Sixfeetunder]

I sometimes cry, but for the most part, I appear to have lost my ability to cry.

 

[Dor]

I don't think I will ever cry in front of someone again, I did a while ago and feelt so pathetic, like what purpose does it fill to cry in front of someone? I consider it a weak ploy for sympathy and attention. I consider that in my case, because it's true, last time I did it was basically that, feelt grossed out and never want to do it again. But I'm fine with others coming crying to me, I'd actually even like that, haven't had anyone for the longest time reveal or share their emotions with me at such a level. I don't think anyone has enough respect or keep me at a high enough regard to do that, I'm a joke.

Cry by myself? Well I'm on maxdose effexor, it's literally physically impossible to cry for me lol. Funny thing I notice is when I come off the effexor watching movies makes me tear up and cry lol.

 

[Redt2go]

I don't think I will ever cry in front of someone again, I did a while ago and feelt so pathetic, like what purpose does it fill to cry in front of someone? I consider it a weak ploy for sympathy and attention. I consider that in my case, because it's true, last time I did it was basically that, feelt grossed out and never want to do it again. But I'm fine with others coming crying to me, I'd actually even like that, haven't had anyone for the longest time reveal or share their emotions with me at such a level. I don't think anyone has enough respect or keep me at a high enough regard to do that, I'm a joke.

Cry by myself? Well I'm on maxdose effexor, it's literally physically impossible to cry for me lol. Funny thing I notice is when I come off the effexor watching movies makes me tear up and cry lol.

Does your AD help with your depression

 

[SLN1096]

I'm the complete opposite, I'm an emotional mess. I cry at anything. Sometimes I'll just be alone with my thoughts and I'll start sobbing. F u emotions

 

[sólstafir]

A good cry would cleanse the soul. Feeling soulless and unable to cry is the worst.

 

[Dor]

Does your AD help with your depression

Yeah but at the cost of losing emotional depth and feeling more soulless than usual.

 

[Redt2go]

Yeah but at the cost of losing emotional depth and feeling more soulless than usual.

ffs that sucs ass wellatthis point I don't remember ever having emotional depth sooo