I used to be sentimental about death n shit but not I AM SOOO FUCKING HAPPY like I can finally live life without stress like this is the most carefree and happy I've felt in soooo long. (lowk turns into a vent here can you tell I have ADHD?) This might not be nice idk but when I think about other people that committed suicide I don't even feel sad I feel happy for them because imagine how freeing TS was for them?? a lot of non suicidal people assume that people "regret" their decisions right before dying man FUCK that I'm feeling so good right now. I don't even want to write sentimental suicide notes to everyone anymore I just wanna write about the reasons why I want this torture to end and be done with it. dont even hold a funeral for me just forget me I AM DONE!!! I don't even know why I feel so free because I only have like 50% of the work I need to do to execute my plan done. this isn't even my first attempt either I've literally attempted so many times but I think this is is the first time I'm 100000% sure that I'm out instead of going back and forth and having some back up plan
