Kramer
Nervous wreck
- Oct 27, 2020
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I'm in my room on my phone 24/7. It makes me restless but I have nothing else to do but drive around and visit places like Target. It's a shit existence devoid of meaningful connection.
My life has sadly only improved because of Covid but that's only because of the stimulus checks.That's sad...I'm sorry. Is it because of Covid? Or just the way life always is for you?
I have people around me all the time, but yet I still feel lonely.
It's not a good area to walk in. Not due to crime. Work would get one out of the house so being inside the rest of the time wouldn't suck.What about going outside on walks? Clears my head every time.
But other then that (and work) I'm also in my room 24/7.
Luckily it's only been that way for a few years so that I can look back on better times (had a circle of friends once).
I was just thinking that today. I'm like a restless animal.The girl I was talking to a few months ago compared my life to a lonely zoo animal like a lion or something and she's right. All of my basic needs are met like food, water, and shelter but higher needs such as love and self actualization cannot be met because I'm trapped living in a house with my family for many reasons. I'm almost 27 and am nowhere near being able to afford my own living space much less live independently. I'm sure if I had the money and the freedom from family responsibilities I might be able to become more independent since I had some experience from when I was in college dorms for a couple years but I don't see that happening anytime soon...
All we can do is wait for the zookeepers to bring us our mates, am I right?I was just thinking that today. I'm like a restless animal.
i sometimes see my body as a prison.
Sorry, that's so sad. Nothing working on your pain enough?Yes, i live in a care facility completely bedridden and not been able to leave dark room for the last 2 years (cant tolerate any light bc migraines and sensory overload) The room even looks like a prison cell since i am unable to decorate it and in torturous pain all the time
I cant take painkillers because i get horrible side effects from drugs. Tens machine helps slightly for stomach/back pain but only takes the worst edge offSorry, that's so sad. Nothing working on your pain enough?