Anyone else keep living because you want to find connection in this world?

[Ambivalent1]

I've struggled to find it, but I want it more than anything. Trouble is I dislike most people and idealize those rare persons who are good to me, but even they have been kind of shallow and lack depth.

 

[WorthlessTrash]

maybe a very tiny part of me because I want to find romance, but I can't keep coping like this forever.

 

[Ambivalent1]

maybe a very tiny part of me because I want to find romance, but I can't keep coping like this forever.

And how would people like us even behave in such a scenario? I think I'd ruin a romantic relationship with my many issues. It'd just confirm that I'm broken.

 

[WorthlessTrash]

And how would people like us even behave in such a scenario? I think I'd ruin a romantic relationship with my many issues. It'd just confirm that I'm broken.

I had one many years ago., but I broke it off. I think it's best I don't get into another one. I can't promise her I'd stick around and be alive too long.

 

[Ambivalent1]

I had one many years ago., but I broke it off. I think it's best I don't get into another one. I can't promise her I'd stick around and be alive too long.

Did your issues get in the way? If so, how?

 

[WorthlessTrash]

Did your issues get in the way? If so, how?

Ironically enough, she didnt know about my problems. I broke up with her for a diff reason. But those issues that led me here would likely get in the way of a new relationship.

 

[deadwinter]

i feel the same. i long to have a meaningful connection with someone more than anything. the problem is i dont know how to express myself and have awful social anxiety. anyways, i dont even have the energy to take care of myself and i dont wnt 2 burden someone w my issues

 

[leavingsoon99]

I wanted to. I used to love life so much. Now that I see it for what it is, and humans for what they are, I'm more just staying just to find my true self. I realize that no one cares about nor loves me, so I've decided not to care about people either. I don't have the energy to keep giving a world that doesn't want me in it. I can't keep giving attention to women who don't even notice me. I'm finding my truest self and going to terminate at that point. I want to leave this world at the highest vibration possible. I'm not a nihilist, so I don't believe in the total nothingness.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I used to. I had such a fairytale idea of love and sharing my life with a partner. To be honest, even friendship now feels unreliable. It feels kind of sad because I think I probably had the potential to be happier but I just didn't want to take the risk of rejection or abandonment.

 

[phrog21]

i feel the same. i long to have a meaningful connection with someone more than anything. the problem is i dont know how to express myself and have awful social anxiety. anyways, i dont even have the energy to take care of myself and i dont wnt 2 burden someone w my issues

There has never been an instance in my life where i have felt worse off or negatively about someone because of them opening up me. there are people out there who will be patient and allow you to open up over time. I didn't really realize this until i met a couple really good people i really trust. Dont worry ok

 

[Ambivalent1]

There has never been an instance in my life where i have felt worse off or negatively about someone because of them opening up me. there are people out there who will be patient and allow you to open up over time. I didn't really realize this until i met a couple really good people i really trust. Dont worry ok

Unless you're an oversharer. I've learned that's bad.

 

[endless_pain]

Yes this is one of the reasons I keep living more in this life, although the pain every day comes, and sometimes it is unbearable just to think about how to change the course of my life.