Anyone else just prolonging the inevitable?

[PhilosOfDoom]

I know myself. Anytime I get into a routine, e.g a job, my depressions flares up. It's something about having obligations which just absolutely makes me suicidal. I won't be able to function without having a job, gf, etc, however. Therefore, I know, that eventually I'll just have to end it. I cannot function in a society. Right now I'm just prolonging the inevitable.

Anyone else in a similar situation?

 

[Indieblue]

Yes, i am in a similar situation. You are not alone.

 

[Ardesevent]

Me too. I'll have no chance out there once I graduate from college. Even there though, I feel like it's the same stressful routine each day.

 

[your pathologist]

Its seems when i do find routine im sad, and when i have no routine im sad.
But its something about existential dread for me, like, oh my God, this will never end...

 

[PhilosOfDoom]

Me too. I'll have no chance out there once I graduate from college. Even there though, I feel like it's the same stressful routine each day.

To be honest, college will probs be enough for me to actually do it, I'm just waiting. Hearing all about sleepless nights, professors, and so forth.

I've just finally came to this realization. Hopefully things will look up for us, but something makes me pessimistic. You constantly have to worry about GPA, grades, turning that one assignment in, talking to this one professor, it just sounds like a balance game that only some can win. I know I'm not going to win the war, perhaps, the battle. Good luck.

 

[AlreadyGone]

You are not alone. It is just a matter of when at this point.

 

[hunthunt]

yes, me. I just wanna go

 

[Mustkeyknow]

pretty much.

 

[Abaigh]

Same litreally. Here if you want to talk btw

 

[soakmeinbleach]

100%

 

[Mr2005]

Probably. I'm trying to fix the unfixable. I'm resilient as hell but eventually I'm just going to give up