anyone else homeschooled?

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i was homeschooled from fourth grade through seventh grade and put back into public school in eighth grade.

for four years i was isolated almost completely from the outside world. i had no friends except for online pedos, which my mom knew about but did nothing to stop me from talking to them. i was just given textbooks and had to teach myself, and i was never taught basic skills like riding a bike, washing my hair, doing laundry, cooking, cleaning.

and then i was forced back into public school at probably the worst time possible. i had zero social skills. every time i tried to make friends i would always make them uncomfortable by turning the conversation back to gore videos or sex/fetish because that's all i could talk about for four years with the creeps grooming me. so i became a loner pretty much, and then got into drugs in high school. somehow i made it to college, i can fake being a normal person but that just makes it worse because people quickly realize how mentally fucked up i am. i feel like it's better for society if i CTB because I can't function in it.

was anyone else homeschooled? how did it affect you?

 

[Dolphin55]

Me! I'm now an incredibly anxious person with zero social skills, lol. Only person I consistently socialised with growing up was my brother. I have never had a friend, apart from some not-so-great online people I used to hang around with. Like you, the internet was my main form of human contact for years. I'm very lucky I wasn't groomed - I'm so sorry to hear that happened to you.

I also feel unable to function in society now. I have so little experience doing anything, and feel like I don't have an understanding of how to do the basic stuff everyone else takes for granted. I'm crazy anxious about *everything* and it makes life hell.

Maybe school would have been shit in its own way too, but tbh I wish I'd gotten a chance to try being a normal kid. I feel like I missed out on a ton and it's impossible to catch up now.

 

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Me! I'm now an incredibly anxious person with zero social skills, lol. Only person I consistently socialised with growing up was my brother. I have never had a friend, apart from some not-so-great online people I used to hang around with. Like you, the internet was my main form of human contact for years. I'm very lucky I wasn't groomed - I'm so sorry to hear that happened to you.

I also feel unable to function in society now. I have so little experience doing anything, and feel like I don't have an understanding of how to do the basic stuff everyone else takes for granted. I'm crazy anxious about *everything* and it makes life hell.

Maybe school would have been shit in its own way too, but tbh I wish I'd gotten a chance to try being a normal kid. I feel like I missed out on a ton and it's impossible to catch up now.

Yess I also feel this way, I think school would have definitely traumatized me in a different way, but it definitely would not be this bad. At least I would have a shot at being a normal person. I feel so bitter all the time pretending like I'm just like everyone else when right below the surface I'm clearly not.

 

[thatlatealready]

I was on and off homeschooled because I was too autistic to cope with regular school (couldn't deal with the lights, the noise, the demands, the uniform, etc).

I hated school so much I didn't mind being homeschooled, but it's fucked my social development somewhat. Lack of experience and a disability that makes you weird as shit isn't a pretty mixture. I feel sad I missed out on so many normal teenage experiences, but I'm also probably too autistic to have got to experience those even if I went regular school. Idk, I have some friends and stuff so I guess I'm doing okay. I was suicidal anyway.