Cut myself off from my family over a year ago. My one friend from my home area I stopped communicating with. He was actually a good friend, but my mental turmoil and turbulence made it hard for me to feel like I could enjoy the moment when we would catch up and go to concerts and stuff. He deserved better, I hope he's well.
I attempted ctb beginning of June. I guess survival instinct kicked in and my body reacted against my attempt, but my mind never faltered in being certain it was what I wanted. Anyway, I voluntarily called 911 and went inpatient afterwards. When I left, I reconnected with a coworker from my previous job and pretty much said, "hey, I'm very sorry to contact you out of the blue, but could I talk to you about some pretty intense stuff I just went through?" Met up with them, talked and it was actually really good. They're a very supportive person that I've been keeping in touch with ever since and there is a friendship there.
But in terms of friends like people who I regularly see and hang out with outside of work whether in real life or online, no I don't have anyone like that.
I've actually been going to a local NAMI group once a month and there's some familiar faces I'm starting to see there. So I guess, there's supportive people that I'm finding in the aftermath of everything. I just started a new job this week and the workplace is surprisingly non-toxic lol. I actually really like and am impressed with the place.
While these things are starting to come along for me, the struggle of "okay but how do I meet new people and maybe make friends to hang out with even just once in a while," that's something that I'd like to try to work on for myself.
