BPDprisoner
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- Jul 4, 2018
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I don't feel loneliness. But I consider this an advantageous trait, not a disorder -- knowing how most people out there can behave
definitely a big distinction between being lonely v.s. being solitary.
How can it be exactly? Please explain that to me.I don't feel loneliness. But I consider this an advantageous trait, not a disorder -- knowing how most people out there can behave
How can it be exactly? Please explain that to me.
And yes, it's a huge advantage.
Something similar happened to me but with body image. Slowly I thought how pointless ot was and how society demands each time more perfection of image and I refused all that things. What happened you with loneliness happened me with my body image, absolutely not caring of it and just leaving it as it was.It was kind of a gradual process that had its onset a couple of years ago. I used to feel a bit of loneliness --mainly because I have never been under the spotlight, I'm usually ignored or in the best case scenario I'm thanked just out of forced politeness.
It was about the same time I started to discover more about the world, how plain crazy people can be, and how some things will never change regardless of what we do as a collective species. I also began to feel desensitized and a bit out of touch from everything, it probably was an unconscious process that my brain adopted to protect itself from further pain.
The result of this was diminished emotional response almost to everything that happened, including possible feelings of loneliness.
Maybe it's some kind of deep perpetual relaxation, all I know is that I didn't choose it specifically even though it helps a lot, I can be alone for days and not suffer from this. It's probably the same thing that happens to people who watch a lot of gore videos and then nothing seems that repulsive to them anymore.
Something similar happened to me but with body image. Slowly I thought how pointless ot was and how society demands each time more perfection of image and I refused all that things. What happened you with loneliness happened me with my body image, absolutely not caring of it and just leaving it as it was.
But I never could be 100% able to lead with loneliness. It makes me feel uncomplete, no matter of how much I try it.
I could do it but I don't want. All this seems to me an absolute waste of time and energy. Even if I had a fatal accident that disfigure my face nothing would change. I wouldn't do surgery, I simply don't find any reason for changing myself.I feel you, I can't compete with other people in terms of looks so I gave up even before starting to compare me to others. I'd need cosmetic surgery to get a normal face, but something tells me that I wouldn't be happy with that, it's almost like cheating on yourself.
Socializing with somebody in real life is impossible, I always end wanting to punch their faces strongly. Looking the kind of persons there are should be reason enough for not wanting any companionship, but for some reason it doesn't work. I still feel uncared and unloved...Connecting with people, nowadays, is stranger than ever. They might look you down for a small mistake, but they're full of skeletons in their closet.
Even though I don't feel the need to socialize, I'm open to the possibility that somebody interesting could bump into my existence, just to exchange a few ideas worth knowing. But AFAIK, I've found interesting people only on the internet as for now, lol.
I could do it but I don't want. All this seems to me an absolute waste of time and energy. Even if I had a fatal accident that disfigure my face nothing would change. I wouldn't do surgery, I simply don't find any reason for changing myself.
Socializing with somebody in real life is impossible, I always end wanting to punch their faces strongly.
I gave up time ago trying to find them. I lost all hope of meeting somebody like it. What are the chances? Probably millions against one.The ones we'd get along well together are probably needles in a haystack.