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BreathingFailure
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- Nov 18, 2018
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All my life I've been coddled and told how great of an artist I am. All bullshit. I'm no prodigy. I'm worthless and so is anything I make. It infuriates me how no one will admit it.
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Not to belittle your feelings, but I'm actually a nationally recognized artist in photography and video art (with my art dealing with issues from Latinx identity to more existential matters). I have been in several major museum and gallery shows. It just goes to show you that even if you reach success, you won't necessarily be happy. In my case, I always want more and people are always waiting to see your next big piece. CTB is my next big piece lol.
If people are telling you that you are a good artist, then there might be some truth to that, but seek out constructive criticism when you can.
I'm a failed artist that's just beginning to make art, tbh. All I want to do is leave behind some vestiges of myself. A kind of way to justify leaving early while still feeling fulfilled to a degree. I want to write, draw, and play some nice music before I leave.
Thing is I suppose I'm better than the majority of people who draw, but I'm not better than the majority of artists who draw seriously, if that makes sense.
I'm a failed artist that's just beginning to make art, tbh. All I want to do is leave behind some vestiges of myself. A kind of way to justify leaving early while still feeling fulfilled to a degree. I want to write, draw, and play some nice music before I leave.
That makes perfect sense. I will mention that in the contemporary art market, it's not necessarily about who can draw the best, but who expresses something about the human condition the best. Artists like Kara Walker or Henry Taylor aren't the best drawers/painters but their subject matter and execution is always on point. I suggest visiting contemporary art museums near you and seeing what you connect with. It might help you come up with your own style.
I tried to become an artist about 3 years ago, thought it might give me a passion to follow and give me a reason for living. I produced some work that people loved, but I am just so burnt out and exhausted by life I couldn't put in the effort really needed to move it forwards (getting proper studio space, taking my work to shows to get initial sales and interest, approaching galleries etc) so it was more of a hobby than anything else and I just ended up burning myself out on it even more.
I've completed three novels, I've published numerous short stories, I'm 5.3 books of the way through a 9-book series, each book about 140k words --and I've now had writer's block for four years. I'm dead in the water.
I'm a damned good writer, but if I can't write, what use am I? Without my art, I am nothing.
I feel you. People always tell me if I find art so hard and exhausting to just quit. But I can't. I'm nothing without it.
Hey, I appreciate that, to be honest I'm failed at everything before I even begin. I get the feeling of hating your work but it's like I pre-emptively hate it before it is even created. It takes all of my strength to push through those feelings like "why are you wasting your time?" etcYou're not failed yet, you're just beginning. Art doesn't even fulfil me any more because of how much I hate my work. I'm glad you have a beacon of hope.
I definitely relate to this statement. Art is my life, been drawing since I could physically hold a pencil. Probably could have gone somewhere with it if not for my brain actively deteriorating and spiralling into a hopeless pit. Every time I try to draw now it's just... frustrating and useless. I can't do it. I've lost it, my main form of expression. I'm worthless without it.
just makes me sad now to look at my old work
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Hey, I appreciate that, to be honest I'm failed at everything before I even begin. I get the feeling of hating your work but it's like I pre-emptively hate it before it is even created. It takes all of my strength to push through those feelings like "why are you wasting your time?" etc
I wouldn't really say it's much of a beacon of hope, still plan ctb and stuff, just that I have something to fill the time in between until things get un-cope-able. Can't really know how much integrity or faith I'll have in that decision but I'll just go with the flow like I always have.
Substitute in writing for drawing, and this is me. I can't bear to read my old stuff --I was so damned good! Now? I feel like I could write better by beating the keyboard with my forehead.I definitely relate to this statement. Art is my life, been drawing since I could physically hold a pencil. Probably could have gone somewhere with it if not for my brain actively deteriorating and spiralling into a hopeless pit. Every time I try to draw now it's just... frustrating and useless. I can't do it. I've lost it, my main form of expression. I'm worthless without it.
just makes me sad now to look at my old work
I do not like my paintings either but other people do, and given that everyone's taste is a little bit different might as well let them think as they do. Mine is not to judge, and maybe you are a very good artist, but what you see is from the perspective of an individual who knows what they want to put across and is therefore unsatisfied. Hope I have not offended you here Breathing. I am not doing very well today...All my life I've been coddled and told how great of an artist I am. All bullshit. I'm no prodigy. I'm worthless and so is anything I make. It infuriates me how no one will admit it.
Oh please, I bet you created some beautiful art. Most highly creative people fail because we tend to not be highly industrious, dutiful, good at running things. The more boring people tend to be good at this stuff but artist types are naturally unfocused and make terrible employees. I bet you are suffering with unrealistic expectations and perfectionism. I'm feeling encouraging today, fuck what other people think and try something else. How old are u? I loved the video on YouTube that talks about what happens to creative people in jobs by Jordan Peterson. It's tough to have the creative type brain.All my life I've been coddled and told how great of an artist I am. All bullshit. I'm no prodigy. I'm worthless and so is anything I make. It infuriates me how no one will admit it.
Lol!! I have created some beautiful art, but that was sculpting...wood, stone, clay. You pick the medium and I make it. Statues actually. People liked my paintings because the colours were so unusual...smile...slightly colour blind...grin. Seemed to others that the colours were used to emphasise emotions...lol...nope, just bad painting. Ah well. Who am I to judge...?Oh please, I bet you created some beautiful art. Most highly creative people fail because we tend to not be highly industrious, dutiful, good at running things. The more boring people tend to be good at this stuff but artist types are naturally unfocused and make terrible employees. I bet you are suffering with unrealistic expectations and perfectionism. I'm feeling encouraging today, fuck what other people think and try something else. How old are u? I loved the video on YouTube that talks about what happens to creative people in jobs by Jordan Peterson. It's tough to have the creative type brain.
I shall have to check the video at a later date, but it certainly sounds interesting...Oh...I am actually very much an academic. Research, whistle-blowing type. Focus I am afraid is rather necessary, and honestly I love to sculpt, dance, sing, and write...and I do not care what people think of my art. I do it for myself...smile.Oh please, I bet you created some beautiful art. Most highly creative people fail because we tend to not be highly industrious, dutiful, good at running things. The more boring people tend to be good at this stuff but artist types are naturally unfocused and make terrible employees. I bet you are suffering with unrealistic expectations and perfectionism. I'm feeling encouraging today, fuck what other people think and try something else. How old are u? I loved the video on YouTube that talks about what happens to creative people in jobs by Jordan Peterson. It's tough to have the creative type brain.
I meant you are focused if it's interesting and it's gratifying. It's different if u don't like what you are doing or it's boring.I shall have to check the video at a later date, but it certainly sounds interesting...Oh...I am actually very much an academic. Research, whistle-blowing type. Focus I am afraid is rather necessary, and honestly I love to sculpt, dance, sing, and write...and I do not care what people think of my art. I do it for myself...smile.
All my life I've been coddled and told how great of an artist I am. All bullshit. I'm no prodigy. I'm worthless and so is anything I make. It infuriates me how no one will admit it.
I've just started writing a journal online for my family and friends to read after I die. I plan on it being the magnum opus of my mind, my thoughts on death, religion and my political stances along with everything else. The day I CTB is the day I'll write the last post which will dictate weather or not I want the book to be released to the public.