PrincessInWhite

PrincessInWhite

I just want to sell out my funeral
Feb 21, 2019
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I am thoroughly convinced these two beasts are the root of most of my suffering, or at least the reason I can't cope with anything at all. I was originally misdiagnosed with BPD but turns out C-PTSD has very similar symptoms and I was just claiming I didn't have trauma because that's the nature of the disease (shame) And also I blocked a lot out, lol.

I have tried so many meds, therapy, php programs and shit. Goddamn man I am TIRED of things getting better for a period of time then coming back with a fucking vengeance ten times worse.

I hate that I don't have a method ready to go, makes me more anxious.
 
JimFord99

JimFord99

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Aug 18, 2019
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I honestly don't know, but I get stressed easily and I do freak out. I keep it under control with alc, the only thing which calms me down.
 
PrincessInWhite

PrincessInWhite

I just want to sell out my funeral
Feb 21, 2019
640
I honestly don't know, but I get stressed easily and I do freak out. I keep it under control with alc, the only thing which calms me down.
I use alcohol more than i'd like to, as well. I also don't know where I'd be without weed
 
JimFord99

JimFord99

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More than likely I am dependant on alcohol, however I have not the classical symptoms. I don't need it first thing in the morning and all that stuff, but I need it when I get stressed.
 
PrincessInWhite

PrincessInWhite

I just want to sell out my funeral
Feb 21, 2019
640
More than likely I am dependant on alcohol, however I have not the classical symptoms. I don't need it first thing in the morning and all that stuff, but I need it when I get stressed.
same here. only drink at night, doesn't interfere with my responsibilities, but definitely use it more than i'd like
 
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I have ocd. Hid it my entire life. The only thing that worked for me was booze and that has come at its own cost.
 
Sweet emotion

Sweet emotion

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Sep 14, 2019
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I'm pretty sure I was born with OCD. It hit me really hard when I was 15 and started having obsessive thoughts about sleep that actually wound up keeping me up all night and I just wanted to die. But I found a psychiatrist and a good therapist who gave me excellent tools to help myself and in time I taught myself some new tools. It took two years because no one took me seriously at first, but at 17 I was doing great. Then at 20 I got sick with Complex Regional Pain Syndrome which is the highest ranking pain condition in medical history. So when stress gets heightened the OCD returns with a vengeance. There are a lot of things I have to do, that if I don't do perfectly I could really hurt myself, so I have to worry about that all the time. OCD is an awful condition which I don't think people take seriously enough. No one did when I started going through it. It's not a phase or anything like that. It's something that has to be managed. It's very very scary.
I have ocd. Hid it my entire life. The only thing that worked for me was booze and that has come at its own cost.
Are you talking about liver damage?
 

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