Anyone else have issues keeping their morbid curiosity and creepy/edgy personality in check?

[Nexey]

I know I do. And it can often make me feel more depressed.

I'm not sure where to draw the line with this sort of thing. On one hand, indulging in that side of my personality can sometimes make me feel worse about myself and my surroundings. On the other hand, I don't want to try and completely throw out that part of my personality, because then I won't feel ~*~speshull~*~ anymore.

Is this a common issue with artistic types or am I just being ridiculous?

 

[Mentalmick]

We all have personality quirks that we keep in check. I have to rein in my sense of humour here as it can be very dark and violent. For example, seeing those Spanish nutters getting seriously fucked up by stampeding bulls cracks me up. So funny.

 

[Supersadmommy90]

I just let my personality hang out for all to see with all of it's inconveniences. I'm very honest and open about what I think and feel to everyone, publicly online haha. I would rather die than be boring. I know a lot of people conceal their political views etc so that they can be "socially acceptable and successful", a lot of materialistic, selfish and commercially-driven people are also very BORING people who never rock the boat for fear of losing their precious social status. That ship sailed for me long ago, And I wouldn't have it any other way although I am a misfit and reject from said commercial and mercantile society. The feeling that BEING MYSELF gives me... Can't put a price on that. I would pay virtually any cost, including the loss of jobs and people from my life. So as you can imagine my life in absolutely wonderful. Lol

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

I guess you mean IRL. Yeah, I dial down the jokes and everything to an acceptable level. I don't mention suicide every time I open my mouth, either I only talk with family, though. Suicidal NEET virgin and all that...

 

[summers]

All I can say is that I miss bestgore...

 

[lofticries]

Yep,all of this. I also have to keep my sarcasm in check because it often times can be misinterpreted as me being rude. But honestly I'm just trying to break the ice and not look so awkward in front of people.

 

[Mentalmick]

Yep,all of this. I also have to keep my sarcasm in check because it often times can be misinterpreted as me being rude. But honestly I'm just trying to break the ice and not look so awkward in front of people.

I'm the exact same with sarcasm. When the person you're firing it at doesn't get it, it's the worst feeling. I have literally no idea what to say at that point.

 

[summers]

I'm the exact same with sarcasm. When the person you're firing it at doesn't get it, it's the worst feeling. I have literally no idea what to say at that point.

Except if you're with someone who does understand. Then you can double team the dolt. That's the best feeling.

 

[Mentalmick]

Except if you're with someone who does understand. Then you can double team the dolt. That's the best feeling.

Mind you, some people have a built in sarcasm detector and they just boot you in the balls before you get a chance to use it.

 

[Chesswiz2002]

All I can say is that I miss bestgore...

Seconded

 

[Moonomyth]

I don't really keep it in check, but I leaven it by being pretentious and self-effacing. This makes it bearable for other people.

I had to spend 15 years in academia for this talent, though, so it's not for everyone.

 

[TessB]

Yes this is a constant struggle. I can only really engage fully with people I can be intense with. I'm not good at those friendships which are superficial acquaintances based on dull chit chat. Edgy people get my blood pumping. I think I definitely accidentally scare normal type people with my being super intense or revealing too much about my oddities when they really don't need to know.
Example in point.. only the other week telling my deeply devout Muslim friend how I'd been masturbating to porn with my vibrator that morning while my husband watched.
(probably just did it again.. Lucky I don't give a fuck what I say on here)

 

[luten]

Yes this is a constant struggle. I can only really engage fully with people I can be intense with. I'm not good at those friendships which are superficial acquaintances based on dull chit chat. Edgy people get my blood pumping. I think I definitely accidentally scare normal type people with my being super intense or revealing too much about my oddities when they really don't need to know.
Example in point.. only the other week telling my deeply devout Muslim friend how I'd been masturbating to porn with my vibrator that morning while my husband watched.
(probably just did it again.. Lucky I don't give a fuck what I say on here)

*faints*

 

[Mentalmick]

that morning

In the morning? I need help just to make my eyelids work in the morning.

 

[luten]

at one point i told some of my old clients about my health battles, which they did know nothing about. I soon realized that it was a very bad idea. I wont do it again.
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at one point i told some of my old clients about my health battles, which they did know nothing about. I soon realized that it was a very bad idea. I wont do it again.

and one of my clients offered to supply me with unlimited amount of cannabis (for my pain), all I have to do , is not sending him invoices for my services. I said no thank you. It is legal in my country, but i have bills to pay, i cant work for cannabis

 

[Scrubs2016]

Yes this is a constant struggle. I can only really engage fully with people I can be intense with. I'm not good at those friendships which are superficial acquaintances based on dull chit chat. Edgy people get my blood pumping. I think I definitely accidentally scare normal type people with my being super intense or revealing too much about my oddities when they really don't need to know.
Example in point.. only the other week telling my deeply devout Muslim friend how I'd been masturbating to porn with my vibrator that morning while my husband watched.
(probably just did it again.. Lucky I don't give a fuck what I say on here)

You have cheered me up a little, I love people who are open and I do love shocking people, but most of them just don't get it...

 

[WhatPowerIs]

I think I have a darker sense of humor/personality and I'm really not a fan of having to walk around on eggshells and stuff like that, if that's what you mean!

 

[Moonomyth]

I guess I'm not even leavening the personality anymore because people are getting upset by my being blase about having tried to kill myself and my open expectation that I'm not going to survive the next couple of years.

Oh well, as long as I don't get committed again.

 

[deathbylife]

I'm "coming out" with my *distasteful* personality. I've found Mastodon communities very safe and welcoming. There's @disabled.social and @neurodifferent.me. Both excellent servers.

 

[makethepainstop]

We all have personality quirks that we keep in check. I have to rein in my sense of humour here as it can be very dark and violent. For example, seeing those Spanish nutters getting seriously fucked up by stampeding bulls cracks me up. So funny.

If someone is sufficiently stupid, (as in getting in front of angry stampeding bulls), the humor will be there! Perhaps in Africa they will have the running of the elephants, or chasing of the Lions to promote tourism!

 

[Kurushii]

Mhm, I find that if I'm myself around people, they get weirded out and spooked by me so I just end up being a diluted version of myself around others, if around others at all. "Friends" who I thought were close cut off contact because I suppose they just couldn't handle me. I like my dark humour! At least my bf is ok with it. I can only be myself around him.