Anyone else have an eating disorder/disordered eating?

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I've always been a comfort eater, with the occasional binge/purge session, but lately it has spiraled into full blown bulimia. I'm not actively suicidal anymore so now this is my biggest issue to tackle. Anyone else with an ED?

 

[BPD_LE]

Yes. I'm Bulimic / Binge Eater too. Food has ruined my life.

 

[DoNotLet2]

Does sugar addiction count?

 

[blahblah]

Anorexic at 15-16, at some point became more bulimic (starved not puked), recovered a bit but now it's binge eating/emotional over eating, which I hate most probably, because even though I'm healthier than I was, I'm quite fat.

 

[Egddios]

I've struggled with various forms of disordered eating nearly my entire life, beginning in elementary school with purging.

I was severely bulimic throughout high school, combined with periods of near-starvation. In my 20's, I'd say I became more obsessive about how much I weighed and I'd exercise while restricting food intake, purge even when I ate something "healthy". There were times I wondered if I'd ever "get better", if I'd ever be able to go a full week, or a month (!) without throwing up.

I'm now 36, and while I still go through periods of near starvation I find it's more of a response to severe anxiety. Some days I'm nauseous as soon as I wake up, my stomach is in knots and I don't have an appetite or even a desire to eat anything anyway. I haven't purged in years, which kind of blows my mind. Thought I'd forever be battling bulimia in secret. I should note, I broke my neck in 2016 (not suicide attempt related) and was in an Aspen collar for nearly 6 months. During this time I absolutely could not purge; it was a physical impossibility. One of the positives of that whole experience was having a long break from Bulimia, which I guess lead to the remission I'm in now.

Sigh.

Solidarity.

 

[sammii]

I've got mine pretty much under control rn but when I was younger I used to starve myself for days, I think the longest I didn't eat anything for was 5 days. When I did eat I didn't eat much. I used to be terrified of gaining weight, I'm still not comfortable with it but definitely not as bad.

 

[takeyourshotfunboy]

Someone called me chubby recently, and I´ve always been insecure about my weight, so recently I have been trying to starve myself. I have lost 5 pounds and and I´m not planning on stopping.

 

[Little Mook]

Bulimic from 17 - 25
I never thought there would be a time I wouldn't be that way. I ate small amounts and digested hardly anything . 3 months in hospital being constantly watched and in therapy when I was 25, I relapsed on and off for a few years after but never to the same extent.
My relationship with food isn't great. I still feel better if I don't eat , but the obsession and drive?! has gone.

 

[Ratherbeskinny]

I have and still am struggeling with disordered eating behaviour (username refers to that) but haven't been diagnosed with anything ED-related.

 

[Morphinekiss]

Diagnosed at 11. 21 years later and I still cycle through starvation and binging/purging. My body no longer knows how to regulate my weight because I've so severely fucked my metabolism, etc

 

[Rollo]

Well I love food. I have no food shame - I eat whatever I want whenether I want, except when dieting to loose weight. Never purged - I believe in either eating or not eating. Don't like to vomit either. Right now I'm on a diet 5-6 days a week. With my exercise regimen I would be loosing 2-3 kg a week, but I got to have 1-2 days feasting on everything so I only loose 1kg a week, which is still nice. Not sure what eating disorder even means.

 

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Does sugar addiction count?

I'd say so. I've exhibited some truly fiendish behaviour when it comes to sweets.
To those of you who purge - is it strictly to keep weight off? I'm asking because for me it's more than that. I'll overeat/binge to the point of extreme fullness, which I hate the feeling of, but at the same time actively seek, because then it's easier to purge. The purging itself is cathartic. As unglamorous as it is, I feel blissful afterwards.

 

[Élégie]

Yes. I developed anorexia at 15, which turned into binge eating at 18. I'm 27 now and I'm currently struggling with overeating and orthorexia. My weight has been all over the place in the last decade (I've been underweight, overweight and everything in between).

 

[kkatt]

Several hospitalisations from the anorexia.
THEN binned the scales,mirrors and removed size labels from clothes
Now I don't feel hungry but I force myself to eat

 

[6000qqq]

Yea, over here. I'm not going to go into too much into my habits or my disorder itself, but let's just say it's made my life very sad, lonely, and painful. I wish I could live the rest of my life without my disordered thoughts tormenting my head every second of every day.
On a lighter note, I am recovering. its been hard at times, but the good has been outweighing the bad. I've been getting better and I hope to keep getting better and one day beat this horrible illness.
I truly hope each and every one of you reach a place where you no longer need your eating disorders to survive.

 

[dying]

I binge, over exercise and restrict. I've only been diagnosed with BED.

 

[Cookiedough8956]

Yep :/ anorexia with subtype bulimia. I have a better grasp on it now but sometimes it takes over and things get real hard to cope with. Hate it.

 

[SuicidalSymphonies]

I feel sick every time I eat, which always leads to vomiting or out the other end. I also choke on my food almost every time I eat. Been living off of water and stuff with electrolytes lately..

 

[Soul]

Anorexia. It's under control now, but it's never gone away.

 

[Chlo]

Never been diagnosed, but I do struggle with disordered eating (restriction). Definitely gets worse when particularly depressed/anxious/stressed. Coping mechanism, I guess.

 

[TheGoodGuy]

According to my psychiatrist I have a phobia of eating because of hyper sensitivity from my aspergers.

 

[trynacbt]

Had early signs of anorexia as early as age 8. Never developed to full blown illness but I've been wary around food my whole life. And I was bulimic for a few months when I was 20. Now I don't care anymore and just eat whatever because I realized I'm naturally quite thin but also because I hope to leave very soon.

 

[stellabelle]

I've always been a comfort eater, with the occasional binge/purge session, but lately it has spiraled into full blown bulimia. I'm not actively suicidal anymore so now this is my biggest issue to tackle. Anyone else with an ED?

BED, used to be the complete opposite.

 

[Fractured]

‍ I won't go into too many details, but I've been hospitalized several times in my life. I've been in a fairly good place (eating disorder wise) for a few years though now.

 

[Ame]

I was diagnosed and have underwent treatments for AN-R. I have never made a full recovery (I am in what would be called a « partial remission ») and often go into full relapses. Catching the bus means not having to live with this cycle. It has been years but I can never bring myself to say that I am « anorexic » because I am a professional in denial and self invalidation.

 

[Final Escape]

No can't say I do but if I get depressed I can't eat much in that time.

 

[BecauseOfMyPurpose]

Fellow anorexic here. Started slow when I was around 14 then got progressively worse. I'm 26 now. I had it mostly under control for the past three years but since March it's been bad again. The only talent I have is not eating. If I'm lucky it'll kill me this time.

 

[exhausted]

Bingeing/starving and just a bunch of anxiety issues around food.

 

[MissNietzsche]

Old post, but yes, I want to kill myself partly because of BED :/ I even learned how to tube purge because of it, but that wasn't enough either.

I've had BED and have had years of treatment and everything. I'm even studying to become a dietitian because of it..but I'm slowly giving up all hope :/

it's truly a curse for BED to both make you fat and cause you to fear fat; it literally makes you became the thing you fear most. It's a horrible, perpetual cycle.

 

[Winniethepooh]

Yes I've suffered from anorexia in the past. Not anymore though...