Sure do, my mother I have a softer spot for, but gosh she has her moments where she's just...I don't like when people around me, family or not, are "firm". But I also have my suspicions my mother is bi-polar and my old man OCD/perhaps even some traits of PTSD or social anxiety.
Both are drainers to me, as are relatives and others (it's all genetics people so there's your answer why I include relatives) but there were some good times. The caring when I was sick, the birthday and christmas celebrations, buying me toys shopping, cooking dinner, you know..just the usual mother stuff growing up.
The rest of the times, no.
I really appreciate those times. Or when they were generous, in good moods, etc. My old man, I've never really understood where I 'stood' with him. He can be a nice, generous guy, but he can also be overbearing and pretty demanding. But hey, I'm lazy, and I'm not cut out for working life.
It could just be my being an adult nowadays (I'm 24), maybe I'm just too man a man-child.
So yes, I do, awful as that may sound. But I get the feeling everyone shows their true colours, likewise let's say I was to, they'd likely be pretty mad.
You get what I mean all, right? It's like a son or daughter who commits a crime or marries the wrong person against their parents wishes. They'll use the line "I have no son/daughter anymore" that's the emotion I'm saying.
People, even family, show true colours in moments like that. Understandable, sure, but I still find it another reason for me not to feel "guilty" if I ever do...you know.
So based on that sentence above: I won't feel guilty or feel bad...not in the slightest. Just sorry for myself. Selfish, but please respect my view.
