Discussion Anyone else happy they are over "the tipping point"?

[truehappiness]

Hai Hai ^^

I have fought with myself for years now if I should CTB or not. I was never sure and always had FOMO.

That terrible feeling lasted until just recently. I broke friendships, isolated myself, lost a lot of things dear to me all because I was practically a dead men walking.
Now that I am completely over the tipping point and know that I want to go I feel so so much more at peace in my head.

The immutable constant sadness that I have been plagued with since I was 13 becomes quieter and quieter the more I am closer to death.

I will probably try the "blood choke" method this weekend and see if it leads to the desired effect. If not I have also ordered SN.
And if everything fails I will try via CO.

How is it for anyone else?
Similar feelings regarding this?

 

[finasteride_end]

I am hovering along that line myself. Every time I thought I had reached the tipping point, I discovered that I had even further to fall. I made a huge mistake the last time which was trying to leave suicide notes for my friends and family. It made it absolutely impossible for me to go ahead with it. I think the next time I hit the tipping point, I will need to have my method prepared and be ready to act suddenly, because my discipline will falter if I delay too long. I can't decide whether living is more horrifying or dying. But I can't hold out like this forever, and someday I won't have a choice. I am afraid of dying in a state of panic or despair. I want my end to be peaceful.

 

[truehappiness]

I am hovering along that line myself. Every time I thought I had reached the tipping point, I discovered that I had even further to fall. I made a huge mistake the last time which was trying to leave suicide notes for my friends and family. It made it absolutely impossible for me to go ahead with it. I think the next time I hit the tipping point, I will need to have my method prepared and be ready to act suddenly, because my discipline will falter if I delay too long. I can't decide whether living is more horrifying or dying. But I can't hold out like this forever, and someday I won't have a choice. I am afraid of dying in a state of panic or despair. I want my end to be peaceful.

We all would love a peaceful death :')

That is sadly ironically the hardest to get...
But I completely understand you. I also had to fall a lot to get to the point I am at right now. But then somehow thinking about death is not painful at all anymore.
It is just a nice thought and the fear also dissipated almost entirely. Yes, I am still not sure how my friends will view it, but from experience I can tell you that after half a year you are completely forgotten and just another point in the statistic ^^
So don't worry too much about hurting others