Discussion Anyone else had nightmares like this?

[rail.tracerr]

Sorry if this is the wrong place for this, I'm extremely new here and don't really know what I'm doing yet.

I woke up about an hour ago with back-to-back nightmares and upon regretfully waking up my girlfriend of now 6 years for support, she quickly fell back asleep and I have returned to being alone. 5 AM is never pleasant for me as my thoughts race very bad at this kind of hour and I am completely alone with nothing but my rats and my girlfriend's sleeping body.

I dreamed I was back in school, my father was my teacher, and a student was very obviously bullying me to the point that I got overstimulated and clapped back. But it only made him worse, and when my father found out, instead of disciplining the other kid, he turned his anger on me and scolded me for being loud and "misbehaving". By the end of the dream I was screaming "I NEED HELP, WHY CAN'T YOU SEE I NEED HELP, SOMETHING IS WRONG"...to no avail.

Does anyone else get nightmares about having meltdowns and being ignored like this? I just kind of need to know I'm not alone right now, and I figured if others were able to share your experience with similar dreams, that would be nice to hear.

 

[Rocinante]

I have nightmares about my appearance changing. I have to avoid my reflection when I awake.
Like my features will melt and slide down my face(eyes, nose lips), my nose appears wider, or I have acne in my nightmares.
They are tormenting

 

[d3c96524be95]

Am also prone to vivid dreams and nightmares. I've made countless nightmares of being humiliated at school by teachers and schoolmates, trying to shout but be mute, failing exams for completely random or unjust reasons, schoolmates conspiring against me. My education has ended many years ago but I still make such nightmares on a regular basis.

Waking up at 4-5AM ruminating dark thoughts is a very common symptom of depression. It has become the norm for me unfortunately. Nonetheless, these moments are always a very peculiar and unpleasant state of fatigue and despair. Especially when you only were able to fall asleep at 3AM, already submerged with the same thoughts.

I must add that some medications (including most antidepressants) are known to have an effect on dreams. They can often induce nightmares and particularly vivid dreams. Had really bad experience with some ADs in the past, so I think it's worth noting.

 

[notwhereIbelong]

This is a very common nightmare for me; I'll dream of various people from my life, friends, teachers, acquaintances, and especially my mother, she's always present, pitting against me for whatever reason, trying to make me feel guilty for for something or insulting me. When I try to defend myself the guilt tripping just gets worse, and it keeps escalating until I'm screaming, begging, and threatening suicide.
It only stops when my morning alarm rings, and it always takes me at least half an hour to process what happened. I got more used to it after months of having the same nightmare, but it's still a punch in the gut every time

 

[Spiked_Coffee]

There is interesting theory in psychology where its said, that something that you dont want to acknowledge/know comes to you at night as dreams or nightmares. It feels like you have a lot to work with, the only thing i can advice you is to try to meditate on it - try to relax, breathe, be in the present moment (you can find so much relaxing meditation on YT for expample) and then try to think through it but try doing this as an observer, like you look at yourself from distance and you see yourself reacting to it, or being in some memories. I dont know if it will help, but maybe it will give you some ease if you do it regularly or show you something that you didnt know … at least i hope so.
Much love <3

 

[PublicDiary0606]

I still have vivid dreams of my traumatic experience while I was back in school 5 years ago.

Long story short, I developed major depression in school and had one of the longest and traumatic experience of being isolated, ctb attempts and self harm. I shut off all my socials and contacts, leaving school and friend whatsapp groups. It was painful and till this day it haunts me.

In my dream, which I had in multiple nights sometimes, I was woken up in the morning right before sunrise by my alarm. I sluggishly took my phone under my pillow and it was my old phone. A green Sony Xperia XA1 with a crazy feature to vibrate like mad. Offed the alarm from my phone and checked through my messages. Saw notifications of my classmates talking about homework and what time do we have to report at. As I looked around my room, I saw my old school uniform. My heart rate rises once I realised I'm back in the past. I do not want this ever. I rushed out my room and saw my mom in the kitchen making breakfast. I looked at her and she looked slightly different. I thought to myself this can't be real. I told frantically "Mom, I'm not suppose to be here". She then replied, "Stop your nonsense, you trying to skip school again?". My sister then woke up and I start spewing her secrets that she would reveal in the future. Mentioning about her boyfriend and her job. (She worked part time somewhere and my didn't ask permission from my mom.) She was deeply offended and she was furious and she screamed "How the fuck did you know all of this?". "I'm not suppose to be here! I'm 20 years old, not 16!" I replied desperately. At this point my heart rate was crazy high and yet im still in my dream. From being anxious to breaking into a panic attack and it jolted me awake. Finally out of that hell hole and I had to look for landmarks to remind me that I'm in the present. So yeah, vivid dreams about the past are really detailed and scary, to me I guess.

 

[aSilentVoice]

I must add that some medications (including most antidepressants) are known to have an effect on dreams. They can often induce nightmares and particularly vivid dreams. Had really bad experience with some ADs in the past, so I think it's worth noting.

Thanks for this info! I have been wondering if my sertraline dose is too high. When I went up to 3 pills, I started having recurring nightmares where I was desperately suicidal. Seems it may be correlated.