Jack25
Member
- Jul 22, 2024
- 31
I won't go into details, but the past few months my mental and physical health have been gradually deteriorating and yesterday I just got cut off from the two friends I have in this world. I am fully ready to commit to CTB tomorrow, but, I'm still scared of course. I haven't written a suicide note yet but more than that, I'm so anxious as to what is next. I just hate to think of the harm caused to real people in my life by my death. But, I just can't take it anymore. I truly believe that I am not conditioned for this world and can't find sanctuary in it, no matter how much I've already tried. I get butterflies in my stomach when I seriously consider truly ending it.
