Anyone else filled with anger and hate?

[throwaway123]

I grew up with it. It's all I've ever known. I used to yearn for love but now I just want to end it.

 

[invictaway]

Yes sometimes it's like the darth Vader effect almost like Star Wars the dark side consumes you and you have to stay on the light side you start to hate everything.

 

[whatmattersmost]

Anger/Hate towards the Women who broke My Heart after saying we would be together forever.
Anger/Hate towards My Depression.

 

[Wantingpeace]

Yes I'm constant shouting with torture in and shouting the Dr did this to me is murderer and shouting because no one believes what happened and shouting because rest society don't seem to care. Filled with rage. Was last person to be like this before. If I see my neighbour I can pass as normal and sweet maybe but if they are hear in my shouting maybe they are scared idk..

 

[whatmattersmost]

Yes I'm constant shouting with torture in and shouting the Dr did this to me is murderer and shouting because no one believes what happened and shouting because rest society don't seem to care. Filled with rage. Was last person to be like this before. If I see my neighbour I can pass as normal and sweet maybe but if they are hear in my shouting maybe they are scared idk..

What did the Dr. do?

 

[Miss clefable]

Only the hate that's inside me

 

[Wantingpeace]

What did the Dr. do?

A lobotomy have torture in brain from drug going wrong

 

[whatmattersmost]

A lobotomy have torture in brain from drug going wrong

What is lobotomy?
The Dr. gave you a wrong dose of a drug?

 

[Miss clefable]

What is lobotomy?
The Dr. gave you a wrong dose of a drug?

Removing someone's brain

 

[whatmattersmost]

Removing someone's brain

They had there brain removed & still alive?

 

[Miss clefable]

They had there brain removed & still alive?

No more like the drug interaction has made it feel like they have no brain more like a medical lobotomy as to a physical

 

[whatmattersmost]

Like a bad side effect worse case scenario?
I have constant headaches
but that sounds horrible
Like medical malpractice?

 

[Wantingpeace]

They had there brain removed & still alive?

It feels like it ..

https://www.bbc.co.uk/news/magazine-15629160

At bottom article it says ruined a social being..that's how it feels..feels like I'm missing the bit that was human. If born like this I would just stare into space I wouldn't know what life was I wouldn't know any life here

 

[Wantingpeace]

It feels like it ..

https://www.bbc.co.uk/news/magazine-15629160

At bottom article it says ruined a social being..that's how it feels..feels like I'm missing the bit that was human. If born like this I would just stare into space I wouldn't know what life was I wouldn't know any life here

Sorry going on about this..but people are actually listening to me here..thank you. If I tell people in real life people cut me off syaing that Dr wouldn't do that. The ssri drugs are kind of a slight lobotomy. A lot of people feel apathetic dumbed down numb emotions and to life on them. I had that and when I took another ssri to come off first something fried away in brain and was like the bit was suppressed was no longer just suppressed but non existent.

 

[Hite ES]

I grew up with it. It's all I've ever known. I used to yearn for love but now I just want to end it.

I actually used to like life as a kid; not a care in the world. However, in recent years my anger and hatred for life and humanity in general has grown to the point where I have to spend as much time alone as possible. Even when I go out for a walk I do so early in the morning when most people are still sleeping.
I can barely tolerate people when I'm working and shopping.

 

[whatmattersmost]

Sorry going on about this..but people are actually listening to me here..thank you. If I tell people in real life people cut me off syaing that Dr wouldn't do that. The ssri drugs are kind of a slight lobotomy. A lot of people feel apathetic dumbed down numb emotions and to life on them. I had that and when I took another ssri to come off first something fried away in brain and was like the bit was suppressed was no longer just suppressed but non existent.

What is ssri?
Sorry I don't know what that is?
Interested just trying to understand.

 

[Wantingpeace]

What is ssri?
Sorry I don't know what that is?
Interested just trying to understand.

Selective serotinin reuptake inhibitor - antidepressant drug.

https://www.cchrflorida.org/psychotropic-drugs-lobotomies-in-a-pill/

 

[Wantingpeace]

The rage I'm in is because not only Dr deny it I'm sure someone at drug companies would know that this can cause unlivable torture

 

[whatmattersmost]

The rage I'm in is because not only Dr deny it I'm sure someone at drug companies would know that this can cause unlivable torture

You Not on it anymore?

 

[Wantingpeace]

You Not on it anymore?

No stopped three year ago but the damage happened in a few seconds

 

[whatmattersmost]

No stopped three year ago but the damage happened in a few seconds

So the side effect of the medication caused the Damage?

 

[Wantingpeace]

So the side effect of the medication caused the

So the side effect of the medication caused the Damage?

seems to be rare reaction..it felt something in brain fried away really quickly in seconds and then I lost all sense of life existing front brain feels like vaccum and millions other things

 

[Giih]

Somedays I feel I can hurt everybody, so, I just keep away, my anger is big... I think, It's in all of me, but I don't wanna hurt people...

 

[Ghab]

Anger, I've never had that. Life is beautiful for some people and I think that's wonderful. Some people prefer salt, myself, I yearn for pepper.

 

[RM5998]

Somedays I feel I can hurt everybody, so, I just keep away, my anger is big... I think, It's in all of me, but I don't wanna hurt people...

I've felt that a lot myself. I've had a history of getting into fights from around kindergarten to around the middle of middle school, and since I've learnt taekwondo, I get a bunch of good hits in and I'm always the one to blame. I got used to isolating myself from people, and when I did find a good group of friends, I was too far gone. I don't think I can feel anything except anger these days.

 

[MissLisa]

Towards myself yes.

 

[Giih]

I've felt that a lot myself. I've had a history of getting into fights from around kindergarten to around the middle of middle school, and since I've learnt taekwondo, I get a bunch of good hits in and I'm always the one to blame. I got used to isolating myself from people, and when I did find a good group of friends, I was too far gone. I don't think I can feel anything except anger these days.

I feel the same

 

[maktubler]

Only the hate that's inside me

I only have anger.

 

[wezel]

Anger and hate, yes, and it will be used against myself as I have to act it out , I cannot go on with it.

 

[Miss clefable]

I may hate myself but I never hate you