Anyone else feel that their existence causes pain to others?

[Pryras]

I always considered myself an empathetic person but in the last few years I went on a path of self destruction that managed to hurt others along the way. I hurt someone I really cared about after 2 years of constant arguing and back and forth. At any moment I can justify my actions and feel like the victim but I know I'm not innocent.

I believe if I don't ctb I'll just end up hurting more people and causing more damage along the way.