anyone else feel panicky when they don't have a way out?

[PrincessInWhite]

the fact i don't have a defined plan to ctb right now is terrifying me....i haven't even decided to do it yet, i just want the option, can anyone relate?

 

[Empty Smile]

Doing something like this takes time. It's not something you rush into. It's definitely nerve wracking, but better to be prepared and know what you're doing, than to fuck it up and become a vegetable.

 

[PrincessInWhite]

Doing something like this takes time. It's not something you rush into. It's definitely nerve wracking, but better to be prepared and know what you're doing, than to fuck it up and become a vegetable.

yeah lol i'm not saying i'd do it immediately, just that i want the plan ready to go. i hate feeling like i'm forced to be alive, if that makes sense

 

[Empty Smile]

I understand. If you're not planning to do it anytime soon, you have time to plan it out, and determine the best route you want to take. I have my methods, and went to do it at beginning of year, but got caught before I could do it, so now I'm waiting until next year, or when ever the sudden urge to do it hits.

 

[PrincessInWhite]

I understand. If you're not planning to do it anytime soon, you have time to plan it out, and determine the best route you want to take. I have my methods, and went to do it at beginning of year, but got caught before I could do it, so now I'm waiting until next year, or when ever the sudden urge to do it hits.

yeah exactly lol, i wish i had a method ready to go when the urge hits!

 

[Empty Smile]

yeah exactly lol, i wish i had a method ready to go when the urge hits!

There are some people who never had a suicidal thought in their entire life, but acted on sudden impulse and ended their life.

But no reason to be panicky. That could cause errors and mess things up.

 

[Sweet emotion]

I've been planning for a while but yes I always feel panicked. I want this to work. I need this to work. I don't want to take any chances what so ever.

 

[lifeisbutadream]

the fact i don't have a defined plan to ctb right now is terrifying me....i haven't even decided to do it yet, i just want the option, can anyone relate?

Yes i can!

 

[Sweet emotion]

Yes i can!

I have a definitive plan but he's I'm terrified to do it. The fear of what may happen and of the unknown scares me to death no punn intended. Do you mind if I ask why you are thinking about suicide?

 

[lifeisbutadream]

I have a definitive plan but he's I'm terrified to do it. The fear of what may happen and of the unknown scares me to death no punn intended. Do you mind if I ask why you are thinking about suicide?

I don't wish to go into my reasons, but as for the unknown, i look forward to the worlds to come with the greatest anticipation - to quote ______, The greatest adventure of all!

 

[Fallen_From_Grace]

I'm in the fog of knowing I want to but not having a way to do what I need to do so, solidarity.

 

[Read123456788]

the fact i don't have a defined plan to ctb right now is terrifying me....i haven't even decided to do it yet, i just want the option, can anyone relate?

Yep totally agree with that. When I got my method I felt so relived because now I know I've got "a big red button" to push as soon as I want too. Makes the last day I'm trying to wait out easier

 

[scorchedearth]

I know how that feels. I'm not so much in a rush personally. Sometimes I feel tempted to just tie the knot for the last time and do it, but at the end of the day I'm pretty sure it's gonna be a little while. I really don't have good feelings about the future though, and it makes me feel like I deeply need an exit route on standby.