anyone else feel like they're living just to die?

[glowing.purple.aura]

in my opinion: so what if time feels like it's speeding up/is actually speeding up because as the title states... I'm literally just living to die

every day is just "make it until the end of the day, make it until the end of the day" and then right before I fall asleep my mind is like "phew, one day closer to death"

there's just no hope for anyone anymore (which is a whole other thing I could make a post about but this is my 4th post in like an hour )

I have no goals, no hobbies, not really any interests whatsoever, no dreams or aspirations, not really anything that brings me joy, etc. ETCCCC.

every decision I make now just feels meaningless. like... my only purpose is surviving until I no longer have to

 

[itsallogrenow]

I have no goals, no hobbies, not really any interests whatsoever, no dreams or aspirations, not really anything that brings me joy, etc. ETCCCC.

every decision I make now just feels meaningless. like... my only purpose is surviving until I no longer have to

I'm the same. Literally waiting for my meds to arrive and then I'm out of here sometime in February.

 

[SufferingDev]

Not really the same but ultimate point is clear - I know I am just postponding my CTB to whenever I feel ready to actually execute and not chicken out.

 

[Worndown]

Well, we all are technically.

I hope you can find something worth focusing on while you are here.