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wastingpotential
drowning, always.
- Feb 8, 2023
- 144
most suicidal people i know always say they didn't expect to live past a certain age or even get to its birthday, i feel the same.
like after a certain point / event that occurred in my life, it would feel so harrowing to get past that when i did surpass it, i felt breathless before already being pulled into something new. like my life has lost it's original plot and it keeps filling in the blanks now to keep something going in my life.
but it's always worse than before, like it's waiting for me to finally manage to give up and leave for good. i feel like a tv show that's run longer than intended and no longer makes sense.
like after a certain point / event that occurred in my life, it would feel so harrowing to get past that when i did surpass it, i felt breathless before already being pulled into something new. like my life has lost it's original plot and it keeps filling in the blanks now to keep something going in my life.
but it's always worse than before, like it's waiting for me to finally manage to give up and leave for good. i feel like a tv show that's run longer than intended and no longer makes sense.