Discussion Anyone else feel like they are rejected from this world?

[human909]

I'm about to tell you a fucking story and to tell you why the hell i feel like i'm being rejected by this world.


It started when i had social anxiety it didn't really worsen until april, then i know you gonna think this is ridiculous but i start whispering to myself to help block out intrusive thoughts, but it just gets fucking worse and worse and even worser. I can't stop myself from saying bad stuff about other people, i really really try. I hate myself so much i can't wait until i die and have peace so i don't have to worry about hurting anyone else mentally. I'm also getting weird looks when people are around and that just scares the shit out of me even more and people starting not to like me, i mean everyone my friends turning away from my family and everyone. I really don't want them to drug me with this fucking anti-depression pill. Also everywhere i go im to fucking shy to say i have a medical condition with severe social anxiety, so people start avoiding me and i mean almost everyone.


Does anyone else feel like they have been rejected from this world?

 

[KillingPain267]

Yes, all my life since I was 14 I felt like I don't fit in anywhere. Only the grave and it's worms will accept me.

 

[DNR702]

I'm about to tell you a fucking story and to tell you why the hell i feel like i'm being rejected by this world.


It started when i had social anxiety it didn't really worsen until april, then i know you gonna think this is ridiculous but i start whispering to myself to help block out intrusive thoughts, but it just gets fucking worse and worse and even worser. I can't stop myself from saying bad stuff about other people, i really really try. I hate myself so much i can't wait until i die and have peace so i don't have to worry about hurting anyone else mentally. I'm also getting weird looks when people are around and that just scares the shit out of me even more and people starting not to like me, i mean everyone my friends turning away from my family and everyone. I really don't want them to drug me with this fucking anti-depression pill. Also everywhere i go im to fucking shy to say i have a medical condition with severe social anxiety, so people start avoiding me and i mean almost everyone.


Does anyone else feel like they have been rejected from this world?

I absolutely feel the same way. I have always been shy. Like grossly shy as a child but tried to be more open and friendly as I got older but the more I think people get to know me the more they don't like me. I've gone through phases of my life where I really tried to fit in with people around me, tried being like them but ultimately just didn't. Now I've given up socially on trying to fit in. I have no friends. No family ever contacts me. This world has rejected me too. My only hope is that when I do CTB I will not be reincarnated and sent right back to this shit hole.

 

[VoidAetherium]

Intrusive thoughts is a terrible sensation. I can't never differ when i daydreaming or being assaulted by multiple situations that gives me a discomfort and struggle to the end. One of the reasons i had avoid socializing is because of that since foreseeing certain outcomes that would certainly ended up on a bad situation. Getting or walking around on a multitude of people already make me discomfort too. They look at you and sometimes you can even see that they said things about you and laugh at you back on purpose. It started to feel like breathing changes to a lot of variations, feeling like trapped in a location. thinking to scream up and beat those bastards to so end up in prison or worse or just leave and let it go. Most of the time just listening music or binaural beats at home because getting around home without while listening the voices of the outside neighbors calling out things about you and laughing about you at your back , making my anxiety goes on levels of absurdity like wanting to do something outrageous but then the thoughts arise to give the outcome of the consequences and then i cry with my teeths shut inside while screaming out loud inside. Is one of those moments of desperation and discomfort that my rage uplifts my will to end everything but i know i may fail because the lack of thinking what to do while trying to end up. And to ease this pain sometimes inflicting pain on myself, destroying some object or trying hardly to calm down while listening music.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

In my case, it's me rejecting the world rather than it rejecting me

 

[blackpillhopeless]

Yes, I have a below average face and am autistic, been treated horribly by people my whole life as a result.

 

[Overwhelmed52]

Oh absolutely. Puberty was not kind to me and I lost all of my looks at around age 13 and never got them back. Problems at home, plus my insecurity, plus not having any friends really affected my personality and I am totally weird/awkward when it comes to interacting with people.
I've tried being "funny" to make up for it, but I've come to realize that I'm just obnoxious. I feel like I might have adhd and I tried taking meds for that (hoping it would be like flipping a switch) but they just made my heart race like crazy. I would love it more than anything if I was the kind of person people liked to call or invite over.

 

[RoyalBengalAutistic]

I do

 

[death_bed221]

Yes, all my life since I was 14 I felt like I don't fit in anywhere. Only the grave and it's worms will accept me.

I don't think even worms want me tbh