Venting anyone else feel like SS helps keep them alive?

[iftheworldwasending]

the fucking irony of it all is that this site is where i feel safest sometimes. i feel seen, and cared for. to know that as horrendous as it is, there are other humans who feel the same. who stand by each other, regardless of if they decide to CTB or change their minds.
i've met some of the most incredible people from SS who have held me when i was down and made me feel heard and loved.

does anyone else feel like SS is keeping them alive sometimes?
maybe i make no sense.

xx

 

[Judah]

the fucking irony of it all is that this site is where i feel safest sometimes. i feel seen, and cared for. to know that as horrendous as it is, there are other humans who feel the same. who stand by each other, regardless of if they decide to CTB or change their minds.
i've met some of the most incredible people from SS who have held me when i was down and made me feel heard and loved.

does anyone else feel like SS is keeping them alive sometimes?
maybe i make no sense.

xx

Yes, I feel the same and I guarantee that there are not many here who feel the same. Many of us need places like this to express ourselves freely without being judged and thanks to this, making a more rational decision is like a relief in the middle of the storm.

 

[Sprite_Geist]

maybe i make no sense.

You make perfect sense.

I feel the same - to an extent. This community is the only place where I can express how I feel without getting a response of shock in return, because I deviated from the actors script.

 

[mossyfox]

you make perfect sense and SS is 100% keeping me off the edge. I've come down from 9 to 3 since joining.

 

[GreenMile]

Yes, big time, it slows everything down and takes the urgency out of the CTB. It's a unique, safe space.

 

[mossyfox]

I agree that it slows everything down. weird how exactly that works. Feeling understood and knowing you have control somehow takes the urgency away and makes you realize there is no need to rush and do something botched and unplanned.

 

[Worndown]

I see more survival here than death. This community is very supportive in ways you will not find anywhere else.

 

[FuneralCry]

Yes, being on here is the one thing that makes me feel better. I just like having a place where we can talk openly about these topics. It is an distraction from my own thoughts.

 

[Flippy]

I think this place keeps me going too. As others have said, it's the only place you can genuinely talk about how you feel and the way things are. It is so much better to talk with people here who, while giving their own opinions won't try to bulldoze you with them. Talking to most professionals, most of the time they want to push the topic of conversation back "on script". The dumb thing is that if they adopted the philosophy of SS more people would probably be helped.

This place in a way reminds me of a plot element in Star Trek Voyager (for those familiar) known as "Uni-Matrix Zero". It was a place for members of the Borg Collective to meet in a virtual paradise, safe from the hive mind of the collective that had assimilated them. So SS is similar to me in a sense as I can "unplug" from the hive mind and be more true to and like myself without having to hide my thoughts and feelings, lest they be judged to be unacceptable by the "normies".

 

[Whale_bones]

100%. I'm the type of person who handles things better the more information I have. Through many horrific events in life, I haven't once been comforted or helped by people who pretend those events don't exist.

Some people truly have a personality where they feel better turning a blind eye and not knowing the reality of what's going on, but for me, and I think many of us who have been suicidal, we couldn't do that even if we wanted to. We already know the stark reality of deep, unrelenting suffering, and there is no undoing that knowledge.

That doesn't mean we want to mope around or languish in our despair as some would claim. It simply means we don't want to be forced to lie about what we know to be true; we're already living it, so the best thing we can do is face it and deal with it as it is. SS is a sanctuary from the endless stream of meaningless platitudes and empty slogans that tell people to view the world through rose-colored glasses.