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- Sep 24, 2019
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I feel generally unwanted and a burden/annoyance. I know this is a remnant of the childhood abuse. I didn't feel like this though until I left my adopted family's house after high school several years ago. I felt wanted while living there.
I rent a room in a house with other renters. I'm on disability for severe mental problems. I keep to myself. But I share a bathroom and feel that whenever I'm using it that I'm looked at badly because someone else wants to use it too. I know I have just as much right to use the bathroom as they do, but I don't feel it. I don't think this excessive insecurity and anxiety will ever go away. I've done years of therapy and it was useless. I wish I died during the abuse.
I rent a room in a house with other renters. I'm on disability for severe mental problems. I keep to myself. But I share a bathroom and feel that whenever I'm using it that I'm looked at badly because someone else wants to use it too. I know I have just as much right to use the bathroom as they do, but I don't feel it. I don't think this excessive insecurity and anxiety will ever go away. I've done years of therapy and it was useless. I wish I died during the abuse.
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