Venting Anyone else feel dissapointed and fed up with life..?

[FadingDawn]

Anyone else just feel disappointment and miserable at the endless and interminable days which stretch away pointlessly through life. Just can't stand even the ordinary misery of life, and feel it is so hard just to get up. Honestly, I'm just thinking back on things I cared about; not only cared about in a passing, superficial way -- but ones I truly valued. Now, I can't even feel like doing those things, or bothering with them. Which is strange; considering if I really did care about them, it feels like I should still be trying... even though those things still basically live in the forefront of my mind. I know those things I loved and truly valued, and still do, with the same certainty I know I exist. I guess, with our age of modernity, of work taking up and consuming life, and with our ever-diminishing attention spans, and everything else, commitment to things which are truly valuable is ever more elusive and impossible. In a way, I gave up on trying to pursue those things I really wanted, which I felt were the raison d'etre for me, because I knew I could never do good enough to bother pursuing them, or bothering about them -- even those things still do obess me, in one way or another. In so far as my interests and loves and dreams extended, my capacities and capabilities did not; in so far as my capabilities and capacities extended, my ambitions and loves stopped short -- though that does not make me value those things the less. ANyway, this is all very poorly, roughly phrased, and it is very rambling and disordered. But whatever, just a little rant.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand feeling so tired of suffering, for me personally existing has certainly always been so pointless and undesirable, I'd never wish to exist as I find such to be burdensome, unnecessary and just causes me to suffer. Your feelings truly are understandable, I know in my case I'll always be tired as long as I exist, I only hope for non-existence.

 

[FadingDawn]

I understand feeling so tired of suffering, for me personally existing has certainly always been so pointless and undesirable, I'd never wish to exist as I find such to be burdensome, unnecessary and just causes me to suffer. Your feelings truly are understandable, I know in my case I'll always be tired as long as I exist, I only hope for non-existence.

what's keeping you back, if I may ask? I myself, just wish i had a good method that i could reach or afford. KInda stuck right now.

 

[Forever Sleep]

Yes, I feel this a great deal. I suppose it's simply that even the good or better things in life aren't straight forward. Most leisure activities cost money and require energy and time. Like you say, so much of our time is given over to work or, in the small amount of time we have free, recuperating from work. And if we don't work, we don't have money. Even if we do work, we may not have enough to afford the things we really want.

When I used to at least make the effort to do things weekends- go and see places, see friends, I'd then be even more exhausted at work the next week.

It can get to a point where none of it feels worth it. You just end up trying to make the most out of the smaller distractions you can access at home but then, it doesn't really feel like living. I agree, it's just the slog of life that is getting to me but the options to change it seem even worse!

 

[FadingDawn]

Yes, I feel this a great deal. I suppose it's simply that even the good or better things in life aren't straight forward. Most leisure activities cost money and require energy and time. Like you say, so much of our time is given over to work or, in the small amount of time we have free, recuperating from work. And if we don't work, we don't have money. Even if we do work, we may not have enough to afford the things we really want.

When I used to at least make the effort to do things weekends- go and see places, see friends, I'd then be even more exhausted at work the next week.

It can get to a point where none of it feels worth it. You just end up trying to make the most out of the smaller distractions you can access at home but then, it doesn't really feel like living. I agree, it's just the slog of life that is getting to me but the options to change it seem even worse!

Tbh it's not even like i care about "leisure activities" which is just another thing to deaden yourself from the constant drudgery of modernity. I mean, the decaying and degeneration of art and things worth, in themselves, pursuing.