I disassociate a lot and there's times where I'll be out of it for months and come back to and just be staring in the mirror confused on why I look different as I notice the way my skin changes with getting more moles or how even just my hair changes texture, etc. especially since being on testosterone. It scares me tbh, I don't wanna be old I've always imagined my ghost still looking young (mid 20s) how I've always seen myself