uxorious
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- Aug 17, 2018
- 58
The moment I really stop and think about all my problems , and how I'm not strong enough or can't overcome not even one damn problem , I feel a tightness in my chest - like I am seriously TRAPPED in an existence of pain , failure , misery - really unending, utter misery. It sends me into such a panic...... Feels like this messed up nightmare I won't wake from and it's nonstop terror. Does anyone else feel like this??
I sometimes need to cut or drink to try and calm down.... earlier tonight , I used a lighter to burn myself just so I didn't have to think about my crappy life for a moment. I have been trying to cut back on drinking but it's just so damn hard because I spend hours in the day just staring at the wall and wishing I was dead.
I just need it all to stop.
I sometimes need to cut or drink to try and calm down.... earlier tonight , I used a lighter to burn myself just so I didn't have to think about my crappy life for a moment. I have been trying to cut back on drinking but it's just so damn hard because I spend hours in the day just staring at the wall and wishing I was dead.
I just need it all to stop.
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