Anyone else exposed to the truth of raw horrific human nature through videos/documented happenings growing up?

[Surai]

whats the point of improving myself of myself will end. There is a very raw real animal that waits for all of us. Something that I had stumbled upon and sought to find out. When I was a teen looking up. Finding the scale I would call of both extremes. Of the "good" and bad" and in seeing the horrific actions humans take. The horrific actions and occurances of the machine against humans. Of nature against humans, of humans against humans. Videos of this occuring. The reality that the worst possible things you can think of, have in fact happened and are in fact happening. It was a moment of pure horrific awareness to my young mind in the moments I was watching those videos, reading those stories of history, and how so much can condense even in the past 25 years. This world is awake and hungry and raw and unforgiving. It doenst have to be "good or "bad" if it just makes sense to nature. And I truly understood there was something that I had thought were just thoughts were implented in a physical realm of this existence. All the horrible reactions and effects and emotional driven were enacted in the physical sense. And the thoughts of things messing up, would mess up to prove its existence. That it had only happened to prove that it could. In a way a sick twisted reality woven

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

As a teenager I perused the Wikipedia article on capital punishment and all the torturous methods that have been used and I was never the same again.

 

[vira]

This world is awake and hungry and raw and unforgiving.

i just felt the need to quote this, i really really very much agree

 

[Saponification]

The only thing that differentiates life from hell is its finite nature.

 

[vitbar]

 

[Cosmophobic]

One of my favourites.

"Even the stars up here in the sky look like a mess!"

 

[niki wonoto]

The story of Junko Furuta

 

[Forever Sleep]

For me, it was going on a field trip to Ypres. We went to a museum about the World Wars and there was footage from concentration camps of piles of emaciated bodies being pushed into huge pits. It was just sickening to know that as humans- we are are capable of that.

I think when I was young, I would to some degree, seek out evidence that we were rotten. That the world is rotten. I felt a lot more of the communal sadness back then- if that makes sense?

Since then, I tried to avoid the truly horrific mass tragedies to some extent. Both human and natural. There are certain films even- that I think I should watch but, can't bring myself to.

I seem to go about it a different way now. I watch more true crime. Mostly men killing or scaming women. I think probably to reassure myself of my own life choices that- maybe it's not the best outcome to be single but, at least I haven't gone through that.

I can understand though- how the horror of realising what we're capable of can be so sickening. I can understand why people can feel overwhelmed by it. Just knowing it's going on or, went on. I also understand why people avoid the news simply to be able to function and not get overwhelmed by it all.