Anyone else confused about what to do?

[Lifeaballache]

Ok so first, I know I want to CBT. But I guess because life has just changed dramatically for me so quickly I can't help but wonder what life would be like if I didn't CBT.

Life guilttrips me every day. I see the sun shining, beautiful views of hills where I live that makes me realise how beautiful life is.

A future partner that could make me happy...

Yet I know I have to go. I don't think life is going to get any better for me but its almost as if nature is trying to change my mind.

Does everyone have these feelings even though they want to CBT?

 

[come to dust]

I'm too ugly to get something like a partner so no not really.

 

[Hollowillow]

Ok so first, I know I want to CBT. But I guess because life has just changed dramatically for me so quickly I can't help but wonder what life would be like if I didn't CBT.

Life guilttrips me every day. I see the sun shining, beautiful views of hills where I live that makes me realise how beautiful life is.

A future partner that could make me happy...

Yet I know I have to go. I don't think life is going to get any better for me but its almost as if nature is trying to change my mind.

Does everyone have these feelings even though they want to CBT?

You can't just dump agony on someone else's shoulders and expect them to MAKE you happy. They'll get crushed. I tried with therapists they couldn't even do basic respect. You could have said that you could find a love worth living for... But the way you said it, putting responsibility on people who can't even make themselves happy... Well... Codependency hurts...

I wish someone could comfort me with a hug. But I can't be happy in this shitty world. I don't have to be happy... Just safe with a caring friend would be nice while I'm miserable like seagul poop.

I'm too ugly to get something like a partner so no not really.

Get an ugly partner who thinks the same as you. Fuck in the dark. Happy ugly ever after. Watch shreck

 

[Firegirl]

Yes!!! I think if you feel this way it might be a sign not to end things right now, at least it was for me. You can always ctb when you're 100% sure, if you're saying things have dramatically changed for you and so quickly, it might be worth it to prolong life for a while until you're fully sure you want to ctb. Maybe enjoy the little things and see what happens, if things still suck eventually we can also ctb then. Thats just the way i see it.

 

[Hollowman]

I've been living in a pretty much constant state of confusion for many years. Brain damage is a bitch.

 

[theboy]

me 2

 

[Hollowillow]

Me 3... I think b vitamins & c helped... But I stay in bed wishing to never wake up... Too dizzy to go out lately

 

[makethepainstop]

You can't just dump agony on someone else's shoulders and expect them to MAKE you happy. They'll get crushed. I tried with therapists they couldn't even do basic respect. You could have said that you could find a love worth living for... But the way you said it, putting responsibility on people who can't even make themselves happy... Well... Codependency hurts...

I wish someone could comfort me with a hug. But I can't be happy in this shitty world. I don't have to be happy... Just safe with a caring friend would be nice while I'm miserable like seagul poop.

Get an ugly partner who thinks the same as you. Fuck in the dark. Happy ugly ever after. Watch shreck

Oh my God, that Sir, or Madam, was wonderful! If you are ugly find someone else who is the same. With 8 billion people on this wretched planet, there is always someone as ugly, kinky, and freaked out........as you are. Sage advice!

 

[onlyanimalsaregood]

I'm in a state that I cannot decide anything. Anything at all. I'm just laying here in bed, without eat, shower, browsing all day long in this website, sleeping, living this nightmare and thinking about ending my life very soon. I wish I had SN. I don't have almost nothing that I can use to kill myself

 

[Muach]

No. Not me.
Which means you still have a chance at life,
So come back another time,

 

[Lifeaballache]

No. Not me.
Which means you still have a chance at life,
So come back another time,

I knew that's what people were going to say but I literally have no choice.