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MeltingHeart
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- Sep 9, 2019
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So the person that took the SN away from me -has stated that would be selfish as somone would have to find me in a horrible state-and that they could be a young(ish) person (not sure what age has got to do with it anyway-anyone could be distressed by finding somone has suicided-even paramedics) in a hotel or whatever. Another time she got annoyed as I had dispossed of a big bag of suicide notes out of the house (ive written hundreds) and she wanted me to tell her exactly where-as she said it would be distressting should anyone find them and read them- again she mentioned children. I stated that it would be virtually impossible to avoid causing zero distress/ disruption to anyone in this case (without going into obvious examples ie; dog walker finding a hanging, train drivers that deal with it, people witnessing jumpers)
She suggested that if I am so determined- the best way would be to walk into the sea - i said that even then my body could wash up on the shore - she said at the very least they will not know if was a suicide as someone could just think it was an accidental drowing.
Does she have a fair point? It is not my wish to cause anyone distress, yet on the same note im not sure currently that I have the mental or physical capaity to travel and/ or organise a very v remote location. Maybe I should take the sea option. just not sure i can even handle a train to brighton or wherever-without having a huge breakdown in public on route-and police or mental health services being called.
Dilema!!
She suggested that if I am so determined- the best way would be to walk into the sea - i said that even then my body could wash up on the shore - she said at the very least they will not know if was a suicide as someone could just think it was an accidental drowing.
Does she have a fair point? It is not my wish to cause anyone distress, yet on the same note im not sure currently that I have the mental or physical capaity to travel and/ or organise a very v remote location. Maybe I should take the sea option. just not sure i can even handle a train to brighton or wherever-without having a huge breakdown in public on route-and police or mental health services being called.
Dilema!!