Venting Anyone else absolutely sick to death of going to work every day?

[Spite]

I am. Imagining having to keep this up for the next 40+ years genuinely makes me want to die. I just can't imagine waking up, dragging myself to work, spending most of my day there, coming home feeling exhausted, and repeating this almost every single day for pretty much the rest of my life. Feels like a colossal waste of time and energy. And every day feels the exact same, too. It's like I'm in Groundhog Day and I'm stuck reliving the exact same day over and over and over again. It's like I'm living a nightmare. I don't know how other people don't go insane from it.

I've been at my current job for almost two years now and I've never felt more miserable. Feels like I've wasted two whole years of my life. Two years. Gone. Just like that. I don't even think it would matter what job I have, I just hate having to slave my life away doing work. And all for what? So I can avoid homelessness? I earn near minimum wage and I'm only just able to scrape by with what I'm earning. I'm not even a big spender either and I still can hardly save up any money at all.

I'm just so sick of this. Work is soul-destroying and I really have no idea what to do other than to just cope endlessly until I either retire or CTB. I hate this. I feel so trapped and everything feels so hopeless. I was just wondering if anybody else felt the same.

 

[countdowntoecstasy]

I feel the same way and I would be so much happier if it was a decent job instead of a shitty dead end job. I'm sick of it too. I make hardly anything and it's thankless. Just critiques of how I'm doing things wrong. I haven't been in my job for as long as you but I feel equally stuck considering I can't find anything better.

I only cope by dreaming of a better future that I know is ultimately unobtainable at least in my present state.

 

[hopemeetshopeless]

It's actually the main reason that I'm gonna ctb soon. My job is hell. I cannot handle the stress. I can't find another job. I still don't have a car either. If I didn't have to go to this job everyday I wouldn't have just bought this gun. I wouldn't kill myself if I didn't have to work this job. No one understands or has any empathy for me not being able to find a better job.

 

[metfan647]

I despise my current job. I've been doing it for a year and a half but the current state of the job market in the UK just doesn't allow me to quit. I have some savings to keep going but the reality is, the bit of routine this soul-destroying job (call centre) gives me, is probably keeping me from tipping over the edge.

I'm getting older now and losing the fight in me.

I do think if I lived in some utopia, I'd still find a way to be inclined towards a cynical and negative state of mind. I'm just not wired well.

 

[kitkat9234]

Currently living this nightmare of a Groundhog Day. Been at my job for 12 years have no idea how I've lasted this long or how I haven't gotten fired yet. I'm barely hanging on. Have been calling out a lot lately and blowing through my sick time. I probably have another 25 years before I can actually retire. That just overwhelms me to think about that….. I don't want to do this anymore.