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And God decreed, “Coronavirus spread forth!”
- Sep 24, 2019
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My life has made me gloomy, and I've always felt bad about it. I'm starting to not see it as a bad thing though. It's my personality. I'm just not a happy person. Happy people don't actually come across as genuine to me. It's like a mental illness but on the opposite side of the spectrum.
The only bad thing I see about being gloomy is the awkwardness I feel when I encounter someone who isn't like me. I can tell they feel awkward too, and I've always tried in those moments to appear a little happier. I feel that being gloomy all the time, which I'd prefer, would lead to negative consequences for me. But I hate the ups and downs of human emotion. It's so exhausting and only leads to disappointment when the highs inevitably turn to lows.
The only bad thing I see about being gloomy is the awkwardness I feel when I encounter someone who isn't like me. I can tell they feel awkward too, and I've always tried in those moments to appear a little happier. I feel that being gloomy all the time, which I'd prefer, would lead to negative consequences for me. But I hate the ups and downs of human emotion. It's so exhausting and only leads to disappointment when the highs inevitably turn to lows.
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